random writes

fanfic-TOH lumity unfin

this was written the day after the episode where luz kisses amity's cheek—

chapter 1:

"Okay! Good to see you! Goodbye forever!"

I say as my face is burning as well as both my arms legs shake. I begin to walk backwards turning back towards the building, making a beadline towards the door.

"Why did I do that? Why did i do that?"

I push open the doors of the Blight family mansion and shut it softly, my efforts to try not to cry becoming usless as tears begun to well up.

"Why did I do that, why did I do that?!"

I repeat once again with more anger at myself, more emotion knowing that the pretty girl, also known as Luz, can not hear or see me.

I begin to run away from the door, as far as I can get from the issue, more like the human, responsible for my emotional outbreak.

The memory replays over and over again clear as day. Luz turning her head slowly to look at me, her eyes widening, her staring at me in complete silence and shock. Then, worst of all there's me who can't even form a sentance in front of her after I kissed her.

Of course I had to say goodbye forever, I can't show my face in front of her again, especially after forcing my feelings on her.

Maybe, I just read the signs wrong, or what if I just made it all up in my head to make it seem like she liked me back. (Good thing I am not in the oracle track because I DEFINITELY would not be the star student I am currently.)

Any friend would do anything to makeup for the mistake they made.

Although, cagegreizing man-eating bugs or taming a paper dragon seem a little far fetched.

Any friend would offer to take them to Grom if they didn't have a date.

But would they do an almost cheographed dance with the said friend, making almost lustful eyes towards them in the middle of the dance/fighting a monster.

Any friend would defend another one of they were in danger. All these things she's done for me, all these things that made my heart flutter could be considered something a good friend would do.

At the same time it could mean that she cared for me in the same way I care for her.

Soft tears began rolling down my face, my vision blurring making all the colors of the hallway mix together.

Luz would think this imagine I am seeing is so pretty. The mixes of dark and light colors making the world beautiful.

She'd turn this bad situation into a good one. She always does. She'd make everything better again.

As always, I fucked it up.

My worst fear has come true, she rejected me. She may not have said anything but I can tell, she is never going to love me the way that I love her.

I was no longer running down the long corridor but rather slowly walking down the hallway as I reach that realization.

How could I be so stupid?!

I blew any possible chance I might've had with Luz if she actually did like me back, if my 'realization' was wrong.

She made my heart flutter like no one else. She made the acid-rain days better. She was my light in the darkness and I ruined it with some measly kiss. Even IF she liked me back, I couldn't even kiss her on the lips for titans sake!

She has changed so much around here, I stood up to my mother, I apologized to Willow and began the process of mending our friendship, she even made me realize things about myself that might even tarnish the Blight family name. I did things I would have never done before I met her and I would risk it all over again just for her.

Oh Luz, Emira was right, you made me happy, despite the challenges we've been through I can say with all my heart, I am so glad I met you.

The once small tears, now huge crocodile tears, ran down my face, my heart shattering as I realize how in love I am with that silly human.

I am in love with Luz Noceda.

chapter 2:

I sob softly as I approach my bedroom, my safe haven at home. (the library is the overall safe haven) It is a place where I can hide from the watchful eyes of my mother. A place I can go to get away from everything, except for my feelings.

I push the door open not expecting to see the twins, both Emeria and turning towards me when I enter.

"Bold move sis." says as his eyebrows wiggle that is until he sees the tears falling down my face.

I sniffle and wipe my face clearing any remaning tears as i harden my face.

I must act strong, no one must know about how broken I am. Especially not my overbearing siblings.

"Shut up . Don't you have a date to go to?" I walk towards

and that's all folks I ran out of inspo/completely gave up 🤷‍♂️