Holding on to Hallucinations

Passing Away (-1)

October 13th, 2002

Current time is 4:32am in the morning, Moore wakes up to a sudden phone call from Jamie's dad. Half asleep Moore answers the phone "Hello?" Moore's tired voice ask rubbing his eyes.

A sudden pain in my chest hit hearing the words. I dropped my phone instantly and ran to get my car keys. "Where are you going!?" My mother shouts who had been woken up by the phone drop. I didn't stop to tell her and rushed out the front door into my car and pushed the keys into the ignition. I drove to the hospital as quick as possible holding back tears from what I had just heard. As soon I pulled into the hospital I ran out of my car not even thinking about closing the door or taking the keys out. I asked the front lady where her room was and where it was located, room 149.

I rushed over to her room and barged in through the room. "Sir you can't be in here!" The doctors shouted and grabbed me before I could reach Jamie's hand. Bursting into tears and sobbing I struggled to the doctors still trying to get to Jamie. Hearing the heart monitor beep in emergency cut right through my soul. The doctors dragged me out of the room and went back in to try and save Jamie. I fell to my knees and sobbed the girl I've fallen in love with and my world was gone. I screamed and cried as the Doctors came out of the room in grief.  A nurse had heard me and tried to comfort me but nothing helped.

The pain in my chest grew so hard it felt like I was having a heart attack. It was hard to breathe I was doing nothing but sobbing, screaming, and shaking. The nurse put a blanket around me and let me cry into her shoulder. I wanted to scream again but the lack of words and motivation wouldn't let me. Jamie was gone and I was alone yet again. Jamie's father coming back from the waiting room dropped to his knees. Jamie's father had always been a father figure to me ever since mine left for another women and divorced my mother leaving us both behind. The nurse let me go as Jamie's father put his arms around me and hugged me tight. I sobbed into his shirt and held on tightly while he did the same.

I could only imagine how hurt he must of felt. He had lost his only daughter, his world ever since his wife died giving birth to her, Jamie was his only light in life and now she's gone. He had struggled to so much to give her everything he possibly could. I know I felt horrible about her death but I'm certain he felt 100 time worse.