I Can't

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by _Akemi_Uzumaki_

by _Akemi_Uzumaki_

17.10.2021

So were here again... I'm sorry.

20.10.2021

I fucking hate myself. I tried to kill myself again but I just can't. I want to take some more pills but I can not swallow any. I am able od taking only 3 pills and not any more... I need to find some more ideas for my suicide. I can hang myself but I'm too scared to do so. I want to die before the end of the year. I don't want to live another year. My parents are annoyed every time I talk to them and its eating me from the outside.

My friends fucking hate me. One of them is really nice but she not going to help me because she is trying to kill herself like me. Maybe not that much but sometimes we are planning double suicide. She's not in my class and not even in my school So we see eachother once a week. My second friend is kinda nice but she's my friend out of pity and sometimes she's transphobic and homophobic, it's making me uncomfortable every time she is making jokes about "stupid and nothing worth gayes". Finnaly my third and last friend, their fucking Toxic piece of shit. I know their Toxic and really transphobic but at the same time their the most supportive one. I don't know what to do I want to Say to them that our Toxic friendship is ending but I don't know how to Say that to them, I'm scared that their popular Toxic ass is going to do something to me.

Lets hope I will die and wont have to update it anymore.