Once I get to the beach I put my air pods in and listen to music, I sit on the sand watching the waves and just let my mind wander, maybe I should forgive Jack, I mean he did break my trust but if my mum actually cared I would have done the same thing 'meet me at the beach we met at' I text Jack "I'm already here, turn around' he texts me, I turn around "how long have you been sitting there?" I ask him "about five minutes, can we talk?" he asks me "no you listen I talk" I say and he nods "look I'm sorry, I may have overreacted and I don't want to lose you".
"I'm not going anywhere okay Razor, I shouldn't have shared your story, you had every right to act that way" Jack says I move close to him, he grabs me and hugs me tightly, I wrap my arms around him and look into his eyes, I lean in and kiss him, he kisses me back and I hear cheering behind me "I'M GOING TO KILL YOU GUYS" I yell getting up and chasing the boys, we all laugh and stuff around for about 3 hours, "lets go out tonight" I suggest "YES" all the boys agree.
We all go home and shower and get ready, I put on my black lace lingerie, my short black dress, Joel walks in "holy shit Razor" he says smiling at me "what? I look ugly, don't I?" I ask him "oh hell no baby girl, you look absolutely stunning, I bet Jack is going to struggle keeping his hands to himself" Joel says giggling "stop it, your making me blush" I say smiling and giving him a hug "let's go" I say walking out the door and down the stairs, I walk into the kitchen, I hear a glass shatter, I look up and see Jack staring at me "holy shit babe, you look absolutely gorgeous" he says coming towards me "don't move another step Jack, clean that glass up before I have a panic attack" I say starting to breath heavy "JOEL GET IN HERE NOW, RAZOR NEEDS YOU" Jack yells, I hear all the boys run in.
I start hyperventilating and fall to the ground, I feel someone grab me, Jack caught me before I fell "hey baby, listen to my voice, it's okay he's not here, I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you, just listen to my breathing and copy it" he says holding me, I mimic his breathing and calm right down, I get up and start cleaning the glass up, I sweep up all the big pieces and Joel vacuumed "okay let's go" I say walking out the front door, we get in the cars and head to our favorite club, we get there "hey James, how's your night been?" I ask Joel's uncle "good thanks Razor, I sure am glad to see you out and about again" James replies letting us in. I walk up to the bar and Derek comes over "hey girl, long time no see, I missed you" he says leaning on the bar to kiss my cheek.
I see Jack get jealous out the corner of my eye "hey D, can I get a round of beers please and a water?" I ask him, I know Jack doesn't drink so he is the driver tonight, Derek gets our beers and I lead the boys to my booth, we sit down and drink our beers "hey sexy, want to dance" some chick asks Jack "sure" Jack replies smirking at her, he walks to the dance floor with the girl "what in the actual fuck" I say staring at Jack "Razor calm down, he is only doing it to make you jealous" Josh says "well its not making me jealous, I'm done, I'm going home see you guys later, oh also Josh, tell Jack I said he can go get fucked and his shit will be out the front" I said as I walk towards the door, I bump into someone, I look up and see Blade "Razor, what's wrong?" he asks me "nothing Blade let me go" I demand.
He lets me go and I walk out the door, I walk to my car, yes I know drink driving is bad but I only had one mouthful, I drive home and grab Jacks things, I throw them out the front and go in my room and lock the door, I change into tights and a baggy shirt, I turn my speaker on and blast my music on full ball, I sit on my bed and do some studying, no I don't go to school or university, I just like studying different things when I'm upset, after about three hours I turn my music off and go downstairs and make myself some food, I make the boys food for when they get home and leave it in the oven.
I check my phone and see messages from Joel, Tyler, Josh, Blade and Jack, I reply to all of them except Jack, he messages me again 'Razor please, I'm sorry, she doesn't mean anything, I was doing it to make you jealous since that Derek guy kissed your cheek and you let him' I laugh at his message and reply 'oh for fuck sake Jack, he's my fucking cousin you stupid prick, and if you really liked me you would have asked me about it instead of dancing with some other chick, if you want ask Joel what MW stand for, I'll be there for a while' I reply to him walking out to my car, I get in and drive to Mount Walker lookout, I put my ear phones in and walk up to my favorite spot, it's a beautiful waterfall.
I get to the top and sit down I turn my music off and lay back watching the stars, I lay there for a good hour before I hear a noise behind me, I ignore it and close my eyes "Razor, please talk to me?" I hear someone say sadly behind me, I sit up and ignore him "fine, I understand your mad, I know you can hear me, I am so fucking sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you, I was just trying to make you jealous and I now see how wrong of me that was, I understand if you don't want to talk to me ever again but I want you to know that these last couple days have been the best days of my life, and I know I haven't known you long but I love you and I want to make you the happiest girl in the world and if that's not with me that's okay" he says and I hear him start walking away, I start to cry silently, I hear him getting further away and I get up and run after him "Jack wait" I yell and he turns around and I jump into his arms.
He catches me and holds me "please don't go I can't lose you, I love you too" I say sobbing "I wont let you go" he says holding me tight, he puts me down and I start walking back up to the top of the waterfall, Jack follows me and we sit down, I sit down in between his legs and he hugs me from behind, we sit there for an hour and I start shivering, we get up and walk back to my car, I get in the driver seat and drive home, when we get home I see the boys had taken Jacks stuff inside, I walk straight to my room and go into the bathroom, I turn the shower on and get undressed, I jump in the shower, I hear the bathroom door open and someone getting undressed, I keep my eyes closed and let the warm water fall on my face. The person gets in the shower with me and I turn around to come face to face with Jack.
"Hey" I say "hey beautiful" he says, I turn my back to him and he pulls me close, I lean on him as the water falls over us, we stand there for a good thirty minutes, I wash my hair and body then get out, he does the same, I go to my room and put on clean panties and one of Jack's shirts, I climb into bed and turn my tv on and open Netflix, I pick Julie and the Phantoms "I'll be back" Jack says walking out of the room, I go on my phone while waiting for Jack to come back, about half hour later Jack still hasn't returned so I get out of bed and go down stairs, all the boys are in the loungeroom playing Call of Duty "have you boys seen Jack?" I ask them "he walked out the door about half hour ago" Josh replies "okay thanks" I say walking into the kitchen and grab a bottle of apple and black current juice.
