I walk back up to my room and grab my phone, I see Jack has sent me a video, I watch the video and burst into tears, he was buying flowers, chocolate and a stuffed teddy bear and a caption 'I hope she likes them what do you think guys?' I turn my phone off and play the movie, after about twenty minutes I drift off to sleep, I feel someone softly kiss my forehead and the blanket get pulled over me, I fall into a deep sleep.
"I'M GOING TO KILL YOU IF YOU WALK OUT THAT DOOR ANDREA" he shouts at me "FUCKING DO IT, I CAN'T FUCKING LIVE LIKE THIS ANYMORE" I scream back, he just looks at me and smiles, he grabs me by the hair and throws me in the bedroom "GET YOUR ASS ON THE BED" he screams at me, I just lay there and let him do what he wanted, I have finally given up, I hope he does kill me one day, he turns me over and slams in me causing me so much pain I scream.
I wake up with a scream "shh baby, it okay he's not going to hurt you, you have all us boys here protecting you" Jack says holding me tight, I snuggle in to his chest "what time is it?" I ask him "its five in the morning" he replies "I'm going to go for a shower, feel free to join" I say getting out of the bed, he grabs me and pulls me on top of him "no, lets stay in bed" he says kissing me, he flips us over "no I want to go for a run" I say smiling, he starts kissing my neck I push him off me and go into the bathroom and start brushing my teeth, Jack walks in and grabs me from behind, I finish my teeth and get out of his grip "get dressed you are coming on a run with me" I tell Jack.
I get my running shorts and a singlet on, I walk into the kitchen and grab my water bottle and put it in my running bag, I grab jacks and put it in there too, Jack walks down the stairs "let's go, I want to be back in time to cook breakfast" I say walking out the front door we run for a good two hours then head home, once we get home we jump in the shower then go downstairs and cook breakfast for everyone, I go and wake up everyone "breakfast is ready" I say as everyone walks out into the hallway, I turn around and walk downstairs, I go into the kitchen and Jack hands me a plate of food, I go sit at the table and wait for the boys to sit down.
"House meeting" I say "if we are all going to live together we need to set ground rules" I say and all the boys nod "rule one, washing is to be put in the laundry basket every day, rule 2, clean your bathrooms every day, I will not have mold in my house, rule 3, the movie theatre is to be cleaned every time we watch movies, rule four, no food in the bedrooms, rule five, rinse your plates and any dish you use, and put them in the dishwasher, rule six, no fighting, rule seven, no house parties without my permission, do we all understand?" I ask after I say the rules "yes Razor" the boys chorus, we finish our food, I put music on and we all start cleaning, we finish about 12:30pm, I order pizza and we wait, the pizza comes and we eat.
"Let's go for a walk" Josh suggests "sure" we all say getting our shoes on, we walk down to the beach and get ice cream, we sit on the sand and talk and laugh "fire tonight?" I ask the boys "we need wood" Joel says, "leave it to me" I say, we start walking home, I text Tom 'Hey, could I grab a trailer load of wood please?', he texts back straight away 'it's already at your house in the shed, I delivered it today' 'thank you' I reply, we get home and I go upstairs and take a shower and put my tights and batman cardigan and go downstairs, the boys have already got the fire started, I walk into the kitchen and grab a glass and pour myself a glass of orange juice and walk out the back.
"Hey beautiful, are you okay?" Jack asks me as I sit on the seat and pull my knees up, these last couple days have been a roller coaster of emotions and life's been hectic, I knew I should have waited longer to leave the house, maybe I should just lock myself in my room and not talk to anyone for a while" I say looking in the fire "I'll be in my room, everyone leave me alone" I say walking in the house, I put my glass in the dishwasher and walk up to my room, I lock the door and grab my favorite book, about 7 changes of clothes, my laptop, chargers and all the toiletries I'll need for about 2 weeks.
I grab everything and walk downstairs and walk past the loungeroom, I see Jack asleep on the lounge, I walk over to him and pull the blanket up and kiss him on the forehead, I walk over to the front door and put my shoes on and walk out, I put my stuff in the tray of my truck and jump in and drive off, I'm going to my secret cabin for a few weeks until things settle down, only Joel knows about this place, it's about 2 hours away, I get there and unload the car and walk inside, I start the fire and grab my book and a blanket and sit on the lounge and read it.
I text Joel telling him where I am and turn my phone off, I need this time alone to come to terms with everything that has happened, while I was here, I taught myself how to cook more things, I wrote a book, I painted a few things, I drew a few things, I re-organized the cabin, I painted the whole cabin, each wall a different mural, I built a new shed for more fire wood, I cleaned up the yard and I spent time just reading my book and thinking, I feel so much better.
5 months have gone by, I pack all my stuff back into the car and head home, I have finally gotten my head around things and I think I'm ready to face everyone again, I get home and walk upstairs, I leave my door unlocked, I go in the bathroom and jump in the shower, I hear the bathroom door open and close, I hear the person get undressed and climb in the shower, they wrap they're arms around me, I lean back into them "hey baby girl" I hear Jack whisper "hey baby" I say relaxing into him.
He turns the shower off and puts the plug in the bath and fills the tub with warm water, he sinks down bringing me with him, we don't talk, we just enjoy each other's company, I climb out and wrap my towel around me, I walk into mine and Jack's closet and grab one of Jack's shirts and my short shorts, I put my panties on and put the clothes on, I climb into bed and get under the blanket, I start crying as Jack slides in behind me, he grabs me and pulls me close and holds me letting me cry, I cry myself to sleep.
