Dear Peter... | Peter B. Parker

Prologue

Wednesday, February 9 2032

Dear Peter:

It's the first time I write you. You are not here anymore and yet you are the only one in my life. A part of me tells me that this would make me feel better but another one tells me I'm gonna end even more broken.

It's been two weeks since you left but I still can't accept that fact. I am alone once more. You pushed me trough and helped me when no one else did. You believed in me when not even I could. You saved me and I couldn't do that for you. I failed you.

I miss you so much. A part of me is missing. I can't smile. The world is empty without you. I wish I could turn back time and do what I didn't, what I couldn't, maybe I would be holding you right now.

It hurts that you will never return. I don't even know where you are, if I'm seeing you again. If I'll find you. Are you lost? Please tell me this is just a bad dream and I'm going to wake up and see you by my side.

There are a lot of things we didn't do together. I wish for just one more moment with you. We lost many. One more miracle, Peter. Just one more. Is that so much to ask?

Since you left I've been feeling sick. I have terrible headaches, stomachache that make me barf, I can faint for hours and no one knows, no one is here to hold me. And the panic attacks, those are the worst. I want to die. I don't want to be here anymore. I don't deserve to be here.

My only reason to keep going was you, but now you left as everybody else did. Everyone I love leave but somehow I felt it would be different with you.

I've done terrible things and I should be punished. I also break our last promise. I can't be strong. Not anymore.

But I'll try to be the best of me. I'll always keep you next me, even when I'm on my own. I know I wont be alone. You are going to be forever in my heart.

I know you never meant to leave me but now it's done and the past can't be change and even if it could, would you like to return with me? Do you miss me or is it only me?

You gave me the best memories of my life. I am just recovering them, the ones from before the incident, I wanted to share all of them with you, and I'll do it, but by letters. You arrived to a special place in me that no one will ever take. I wish it could still be like that. I'm so grateful for all the time we spent together, even if we start with the wrong foot and had some downs on the road, we almost got our fairy tale. But we miss our happy ending.

I'll finish this letter here. But before it ends I want to say thank you. Thank you for everything you did for me. And I'm sorry for failing you.

I wish you could write me back or at least read it but I know it's impossible. But I'll keep hoping because it is that last thing you loose. Or that's what you taught me. I will also believe that you'll come back to me. I'll find you. I promise.

With love,
Felicity

p.s: you forgot E.D.I.T.H. Sorry for wearing them and see all the memories they record. It makes me happy. And remember more things. But don't worry, I'll give them back to you when we see again.