secret secret

chapter one

hanji POV:

7 am, first day of school

i wake up, just like every morning.  My routine is pretty basic, i would say.

i wake up to my annoying alarm sound, i take a shower, put my school uniform on. i look into the mirror to see a skinny black haired male. brush my teeth of course, take my backpack and get out of my room to the beautiful sight of my so called father passed out on the sofa with his empty alcohol bottles laying next to him.

i dont usually eat breakfast. im too lazy to make my own and its not like my dad would cook anything for me anyway. 

oh right, i didnt introduce myself yet.

my name is hwang hanji, sophomore year. Im that quiet gay kid who sits at the corner of the class.

im not rich, but i managed to get a scholarship which explains why i go to one of the most expensive schools in south Korea. Seoul national high school. 

anyway back to my day i guess.

mm which song should i listen to on my way to school? uhmm i will just listen to she's in the rain by the rose

(a/n: STREAM DIMPLES BY WOOSUNG)

I walk into that hell. some guys not respecting the school uniform, other girls cutting their skirt shorter, others bullying students, others making out. Just, high school i guess

i always try to rush my way to my class before the others arrive. the less people the better right?

no one.

im alone in the class

fuck that feel good (that came out wrong)

i make my way to my desk full of notes such like 

"faggot"

"anorexic asshole"

"ugly"

"kys"

"pfft do they really not have anything more important to do than this?"

just like everyday, i take all the unpleasant comments and throw them in the trash.

i suddenly start hearing screams of girls in the hallways. ah, he must be here huh.

"GUYSS ITS MINGUKK"

"MINGUK YOURE HOT"

"MINGUK HERE THATS MY NUMBER"

"MINGUK OPPA YOURE HANDSOME"

so annoying. whats so special about him. 

oh right, context... minguk is a pretty famous idol. hes pretty young but i gotta admit, hes pretty talented, i dont get the handsome part. he looks average to me.

anyway everyone in the school is whipped for him. everyone but me.

after a few minutes, the students finally arrive in the class followed by the teacher.

ashh i have math- really? the morning? on a monday?

mmh? what is HE doing here?

that MiNgUk OpPa walks in the class. GREAT  now i have to share a class with him. how can my day get any wor- never mind-

he came to sit next to me. 

"excuse me? who said u could sit here?" i asked 

"ouch- im offended. thats pretty bold of u" answered the blond male idol.

"well sucks for u. i never agreed that u could sit next to me for the next hour."

"youre name isnt written here. i sit where i want. mmh?" he tilted is head. "what is that?" 

he slowly grabs one of the notes that was left on my table. i didnt throw all of them- how can i forget a fucking piece of paper.

"faggot? why is that written here?" he asked

i snitched the note from him aggressively

"if youre going to stick next to me at least mind ur own buisness" i rolled my eyes while the male next to me scoffed. i looked back infront of me as the teacher starts talking.

"welcome back class, im gonna present myself. im mrs kim and i will be your math teacher for the rest of the year. will everyone pls present themselves please?"

everyone introduced themselves, name age hobby sex life bla bla.

"my name is lee minguk, im 16 and i do music as a hobby" said the guy next to me 

a random girl out of nowhere yelled "OPPA YOURE SO COOL"

Pfft they would sell their lungs for him.

it became my turn. TMI i have social anxiety.

"hwang hanji. im 15 and-" as i was about to finish my sentence someone interrupted me 

"FAGGOT"

all the class started laughing. all the class but one person. minguk. minguk just stayed quiet. he seemed annoyed. 

all the attention was on me, which i didnt like. i started fidgeting with my fingers until my thumb started bleeding.

"HEY HEY EVERYONE QUIET PLEASE" the teacher interferred.

i sat back in my seat and stayed quiet the whole class. i could feel a gaze on me but just ignored it. 

THANK LORD the bell rang. i packed up my bags really quick and proceeded to leave the class. 

i have a free period so i decided to leave the school area and go to hanriver. i really feel so relieved everytime i go there. the amazing sight of the bridge. the bike coming and going by. its even more beautiful at night, with all the colorfull lights. if i could choose the last thing i want to see before dying, would be the sunrise at han river. it makes me happy. my mom named me after han river. han ji.

i sat on the ground with my earphones in my ears listening to "hate everything" by Gsoul.

as im just enjoying the view i felt a hand on my shoulder.

"hanji right?" 

i turned around only to see his face