My Dearest Butterfly

My Dearest Love,

To me you were everything. You were the light that brought me to heaven, the burning passion in my chest. You were the most precious butterfly. You worked so hard to get there, after being a “nobody” you became beautiful and strong. The most perfect angel. But don’t you know dear love? I loved you before you were perfect. I cried you a river day in and day out. My soul purpose in this life was to tell you, you were good enough. I wanted to make you happy, you needed to be the princess you deserved to be. But my butterfly, you broke my heart. And the one of all else you ever set eyes upon you.

My butterfly, why did you have to leave? Wasn’t the love of everyone around you enough? I know I was just a rat, you the perfect butterfly, but I was content with being in your mousetrap. I was content with seeing your wings stretch out and lure people in with their magnificent colors. You made driving old cars cool. You made everyone waste money to make you happy. You broke hearts, ruin lives, but everyone kneeled to you still. Still. Why? Because you’re beauty was completely unheard of.

No one had ever seen such a fair girl as you.

My heart beats for you still. Even if yours refuses to beat at all. Even if the cold of your personality froze your heart.

Some say you got what you deserved. Perhaps you were meant to fall into a cold sleep that night.

The monsters who hurt you my butterfly, they wanted to show the world that you were not flawless. They wanted to show the world the bad side of you. The ugly side. They knew that only you would agree to such a deal as the one they gave you. When you fell off that building, they wanted you to bleed. They wanted you to have bruises and scratches and ruin your perfection.

But you fell, into a soft rosebush my butterfly, you fell nice and sweet, gently, roses blooming around you. Making you look like a princess. A butterfly. Didn’t you want to stay here? Were we not good enough for you anymore, butterfly? Did you go somewhere better?

All I want you to know it that I love you. That’s all princess. You needed to know.

Oh, my dearest beloved! How I cry for you! I’ll never know what could’ve been. I can not express my feelings. I feel sad, angry, happy. Happy that you are gone! Happy that you are no longer in this world to break souls! Do not hate me for this, I beg you. I love you. Forever I will love you. My butterfly I accept you forever.

You must wonder, what has become of me? What is it that has happened to the one who loves you most?

I am working with butterflies! Beautiful creatures, not at all like you of course! They will never measure up to your beauty. I now have a house, one you would have liked. One simply does not earn a house without a well paying job!

I don’t know what to write to you, love. You are my drug. My everything. I hope that one day you can see this. Hold this humble letter in your hands and feel my love for you fill your heart and soul and wake you up again. I love you, oh dearest butterfly.

With all my love,

Dimitrius, the one who loved you most.