Dance Through Trauma

October 21, 2021

This morning, I received a text from an anonymous Facebook account through the app's messaging app. The text was about my mom's now-ex boyfriend. I don't feel scared to share that man's name anymore. So, to everyone who has been curious this whole time, his name is Ovidio. The anonymous person told me that Ovidio is a narcissist, sociopath, and a murderer. The murderer part caught my attention as it has been making me wonder if that man has ever murdered someone, especially in his home country, which would mean that he could get away from what was done if it was done in that country. I want to ask this anonymous person more about what they said, but I'm too afraid to ask. What could I be scared of? Knowing that he is actually a murderer? Things are getting scary either way. Besides the scary part of the anonymous text, the person sent me the national hotline number for domestic violence, and a phone number that may be their personal phone number. I wonder who this person is, and how they know about the situation going in my life? They would text my mom last year, and other anonymous accounts would, about Ovidio. That man has the whole world against him, but he will always blame the victims for his actions and lies as if they will ever save him from the consequences he must face. This man is a criminal whether he has done one of the worst things a human can do criminally or not. My family and I can't stay here but we're mainly here because of the court appointment that my mom has been waiting to hear from since September the 2nd. She can't leave the state until she's gone to the court that she is supposed to go to for her tickets from June 24, 2021. I hope my mom gets a letter from the court and is informed about when she is to attend court. Once that is dealt with, we can move away from this place, and start a new life somewhere else. As much as I love this town, I don't think we can stay here anymore, especially if it's true that Ovidio has murdered someone. I wouldn't be surprised if he has done the unimaginable to someone because of his immature, narcissistic, and heartless personality. I have a feeling that my life will end because of him, but I don't know how it will end. Am I living in the last couple of months of my life, or will I get out of this situation physically safe? I have no idea what will happen in my life tomorrow, but what matters to me the most is having great times in this world. I've had many incredible memories, so if I had to go tomorrow, then I would die happily knowing that despite my tragic death, I had great times in this world. No one will ever destroy me even if they take away my life because even in death, I will still be unbreakable. My spirit will always live on in this universe until the end of the universe itself. One tiny speck of dust will be somewhere out there in this universe. Even if I'm going to be gone forever, I know that I will be in true peace when I experience one of the greatest fears of humankind. 

- October 21, 2021