The first hurt.

It's always the people you want the most that put you last . It's pointless to be thinking of you but every girl I encounter is like a temporary high to get my mind off of you, as soon as they leave the thoughts of you come rolling right back in, I see you and I'm forced to look away because I can't stand to see you and you ain't where I want you to be in my life. My first heartbreak? Maybe 🤔, are these mixed signals ? , or am I just blind to your smile and laugh ? Thoughts of messaging you really do get the best of me. But I can't remember a time we had a conversation and you initiated it first, maybe I just don't mean as much to you as you do to me. Nonetheless it was all just fine as long as we talked. What is it about you that got me so hypnotized ? Maybe the fact that I know that there is more to you than what you show, my heart won't allow me to believe what my eyes see. I'd be there for you to talk to me about whatever whenever as long as you were happy it was good enough for me. After one of our many arguments. Silent thoughts roam as I walk pass you like a complete stranger, reminiscent of our past conversations, all the harsh words said but nothing to compare to the thought of the one good time we had. You opened up to me, my heart opened up and I believed there was far more to be explored inside of the very intriguing place of your heart I have yet to recover but I guess some wounds never heals. So back to my question. First heartbreak? Most definitely. This note will remain here for as long as I'm intoxicated by your forever high 💭........💔