theirs always a hope in an angel

chapter 7

I woke up this morning from a dream, of my baby girl or baby boy. Fast forward to telling my daughter she can't date. Thinking if I had a boy teaching him sports. I wish this was a nightmare, what I couldn't shake is Rosie telling me you will be fine but you have to move on.  Is this gods doing? This can't be? Barbara stayed over the past week. I couldn't live alone, I thought about commiting suicide a few times. What do I have to live for? Thought even leaving town but what good would that do? I don't even feel like getting out of bed and when I do I just go to her grave site. How will things ever go back to normal my life will never be complete again Every day my heart aches to hear her voice see her smile. I just toss and turn. Barbara tried to comfort me at first. It didn't work, She would go back home to her family, if She were sure I wouldn't be in a depression state. How do you give someone motivation after hearing your wife and your unborn child will never come home to you. I wish I would get a sign things will be ok. Will I ever love again? Have my own offspring? Be able to smile again

Barbara pov  

Every hour I'm awake. I check on joe to make sure he's ok, but what is ok. I'm afraid if theirs any weapon around what he would do? I know in my heart things will turn around, but I wish time would hurry up every day is nothing but sorrow. I can't sleep every time I see Rosalina and joe holding ech other the love look in their eyes sharing a kiss. I really don't get what went wrong for fate to intervene like this. I'm wondering what if he did some volunteering would that help? Every day I miss my family, but I just can't leave him like this how do you talk to someone about this?

"Joe do you want something to eat?" Barbara asked joe as he got up to go to the bathroom joe shook his head no "but it's 2 in the afternoon. please eat something" Joe sighed and finally said "ok ill try." Barbara made him a ham sandwich. Joe nibbled on it, ate half of it. Then walked over to the living room. Rosie and joe pictures were surrounded definitely not making it any easier. "Joe I know it's been a week but what about doing some volunteer work or walking winston?" Joe shrugged his shoulders. You need to do something active.

 Joe didn't say anything, just walked over to the fridge to get winston leash. Winston looked up and winston followed. joe outside. On the porch put on his collar and everything. The walk was peaceful walking for hours. When he saw a young girl looked to be pregnant. A tear fell from his eye thinking he's missing. Rubbing his wife stomach, talking to his child, picking baby names, furniture, the color of the nursery, hold Rosie hand through the contractions For a moment joe forgot about the death of his wife. Thinking she was there right by his side. In spirit she was more alive then ever. Snapping back to reality his knees almost collapsed.

Brittney pov  

Brittney been depressed. Sometimes she wonders what is she living for. How can she be a single mother on top grieving for her husband. Everyone she cared about told her you need to see someone.  She's refused, but Everytime she has sharp pain craves the weirdest food. She thinks how much shes missing out Brittney glancing across the way was a tall handsome man. If she never met miles or grieving and pregnant. She would drop everything and possibly introduce herself or was that her hormones talking, but what was he staring at nothing by her was worth staring at. Maybe she's just paranoid can you Blame her. Brittney turns the corner she hear whispers people that's the girl who lost her husband. I would get an abortion, I would move she's just wanting attention. I feel sorry for there's no way she imagined that. Half the time she wanted to confront them, but if she did that it be lashing out,  Brittney does have a baby boy a baby girl. Joe started walking towards her, but he was interrupted by a bunch of kids getting out of school. for a moment she was relieved didn't want to think the worse, but what if he was some creep picking on a girl, or worse kidnapping. As much her baby hurt her thinking what she's missing, but nothing could ever happen to him or her. By the time joe got a clear vision Brittney was already gone