The day you left, was the day everything went down-RanbooxOC

Kapitel 10- About Trust and Forgiveness

Lillith pov.

Ich war früh eingeschlafen, und hatte recht lange geschlafen.

Ich hatte mitbekommen wie Tiff und Ranboo im Wohnzimmer noch geredet hatten, was mjr gar nicht gefiel.

"Hey Liv you awake?" Fragte er, auch so also war er auch schon wach.

"Yeah" antwortete ich .

"About yesterday.." begann er zögernt.

"I think you should apologise" sagt er Vorsichtig.

Bitte was? Ich sollte mich entschuldigen?!

"Oh should I ?" Fragte ich mit spitzer Zunge:"for what if I may ask".

Es war deutlich zu hören das ich angepisst war.

"Maybe for beeing mean to us, or Just disapearing  or.." begann er.

"Ok excuse me , beeing mean to you? Or Tinffany?And if I shal remind you , it was my birthday noone cared how it was for me ,no cake, you all beeing pissed at ne foe no reason and then you all decide to do something without me?
What did you expect me to do , sit at home all alone?!" Ich war schon sauer.

"Thats not what happened" wiedersprach Ranboo.

"We didnt knew where you were" begann er wieder.

"I looked at my phone , you started asking after 5 hours , no one cared till then . Just admit it you like it when I am not getting on your nerves" erwiederte ich trocken.

"What did you even in that time?" Fragte er dann.
"You werent with that Luka guy, were you?" Fragte er dan skeptisch.

"What if I were" fragte ich spitz.

"I dont know -wait you cant just Trust strangers" unterbrach er sich selbst.

"I dont even trust you, you havent given me a single reason.
Neither you told me why you broke contact-"begann ich.

"Thats not what this is about" unterbrach er mich nicht.

"Let me talk trew, nor did you stay on my side , you leave at the first chance , you look only for the worst in me Mark" beendete ich.

"Thats not true, i dont ,you just , you just were mean and she said-" began er wieder.

"She said what? Huh who is the reason for my mobbing Mark ,huh? She is the one that leads the cool kids, the one that bullys me." Löste ich auf.

"She would never , she told me you would lie about that"wiedersprach er.

"And you really trust her more?
To be honest I expected more, at least the smallest doubt but you believe her like everyone else"ich war einfach nur enttäuscht.

"You know I used to believe that people can change, I tried to asure me you arent the same, who just pushed me away like trash. But you didnt.
Still you wanted my trust, why would I give you that , you showed me once more that you are not to be trusted.
Sure I forgave you but I didnt forget."
Begann ich es einfach raus zu lassen.

"Ok people can change, I did .
I am gonna make it up to you
I promised you -" begann er aber ich unterbrach ich abermals.

"And you said you are not gonna do it again, you said you know that you failed as my friend.
Still your here, you did it again.
But you keep saying I am gonna make it up to you.
Up to me ,the hell.
I would never trust you , even if i started to." Ich starte ihn fast hasserfüllt an.

"I cant decide for you ,but you should follow your heart"sagte er dan.

"If your heart is in a million pieces which one do you follow" erwiederte ich trocken.