I arrive, happy and fresh, ready and excited to celebrate the goodness. I am Eager and keen to have a good time. As I smile from the bubbles of anticipation whizzing around in my stomach, I begin to see the crowd ... I see more people. Many are happy and joyful. They're there like me, to celebrate .. I smile at them and say hello to all many faces I see, they look shocked and surprised to see me, glares as a wonder. "What have I done wrong?" I see there drinks swilling in the fingers as their back begin to face me. I try to edge my back into the circle of giggles and talking, they push my away. I stand still. My eyes glazed and absent. Suddenly they call me over, I think "yes! They've notice me. But then it begins. They start to ask me questions, as to why I am here, they begin to tell me that nobody wants me here, they tell me to leave and that i am not wanted... Not here, not anywhere. My heart, my head, my body, numb...
