8:45pm
I decided to give you space. The back and forth is too much for me. My brain has always felt split into multiple views but now you're making it worse. You cant decide on what you want so I decided for you. A week of space. You didn't respond to the suggestion. Ill take that as an agreement. I'm bipolar enough on my own, I don't need the mixed feelings from you. It was perfect yesterday; we were back to normal. But you changed again today. You remind me of myself down to a T. Now I understand why people couldn't put up with me. Its exhausting and mentally draining. I'm numb now. I don't feel sad about not being able to talk anymore. Its okay. I don't really care too much anymore. Life carries on like it does and it doesn't make an impact. I prefer to be alone; its easier that way. I don't have t worry about anyone but myself. I don't have to worry about being hurt. Its easiest this way, I hope you understand it.
9:00
At night is when I feel most at peace,
Homes sit dark with sleeping families within,
Dogs bark in the distance as if being heard is the only important thing,
The crickets and cicadas sing their songs over one another,
I play a song of my own in my ears, not caring about the volume of it,
Its just me and my thoughts as I walk down the road to my destination.
I'm completely at peace
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This Is Today
SpiritualSometimes explaining how you feel to someone can be like describing a color to a blind person. Its difficult. People don't see colors the same as you do, just like they don't feel the same things the same way. This book is full of everyday feelings...