Concealed Heart

Reality

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21 February
Dear Diary

Finally winter is over , and with it , it's memories to except for Johnny Brown, he got bullied all winter , no one really liked him anyway there was a point where I felt very sorry for him but a part of me just said 'you know a lot of people get bullied you might as well get on over it 'and its got nothing to do with me at all' that was until Johnny Brown died I felt very heart-less to say this but I didn't really care , the only thought that came in to mind was "what's one less person on the earth anyway , never mind a loser " Wait one doubles to two then four and so on , now I need help .
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I woke up this morning and thought you know I should just rip up yesterday's diary entry I mean how could I have been so insensitive; prior to that , I brushed my teeth ....then ate breakfast ,I'd often wondered how people could eat and then brush their teeth but that was beyond me and I had very little time to solve that puzzling thought . I turned my wardrobe door to see my neat time table , which was quite a surprise considering how messy I could be, double computing , great just great , I love computers and programming but sometimes a teacher can bring the worst out of the best of things , I could literally smell how much Mr Donald hated me just with the stench of loathsome that his exhale came out with. Nevertheless a spiteful teacher could and would , never get in the way of my academic studies , I was there to learn and that was precisely what I was doing.
I got home , magma chambers/fault lines /plates, those thoughts buzzed in my mind as I had just returned from a geography class . I grabbed the remote ,eager to see what headlines caught the attention of fellow citizens , "IS throw 'gay' of building" , in that moment my tired looking parent walked into the medium sized living room , they looked tired.
"What's the headlines today?" My father asked suddenly interested
"Tyrants assuming" I replied bluntly .
They had a clear view of the TV screen . Vaguely, they smiled.
I don't know why this thought uninvited ,entered my mind but I always let as if my Parents didn't accept gays, they were religious Christians ,so religious almost radical but I never questioned or judged their opinions I believed every one should have their own beliefs and faiths and the on to judge is unknown of.