My Personal Nightmare

ALL ALONE

"It's day 3 today. I am still here. I am all alone. Lonely. I have been alone most of my life, but I have never been lonely. The room I am stuck in is if the color  gray, the dark sad gray. It is huge and makes me feel small and meaningless in comparison. This room has a ton of mirrors hanging on the walls, they are everywhere. If the place is not filled with a mirror then it is gray sad and melancholy. I have been suffering from insomnia. I wish I was not here. This room reminds me of all the failures in my life. I wish you were here with me."

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"It's day 11. Nothing much has changed. I am still alive. I thought I would be dead till yesterday at the latest, yet I am somehow still alive. I was felt as if I was starving for so many days I was sure I would be dead, yet this morning I was feeling perfectly normal as if I did not starve to the verge of death. I was unable to move due to the unbearable pain yesterday. Today I feel healthy as if all is normal, again. I wish you were here with me."

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"It's day 20. Twenty days of being trapped in hell. I am all alone as I was most of my life, but for the first time in my life I also feel lonely. I wish I had someone you in here with me. I have also found a pattern for my starvation. The first four days I feel completely fine. The next six days it feels as if I am going to slowly die of starvation. On the eleventh day I feel well as if nothing at all has happened. You have no idea how much I miss you. I wish you were here with me."

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"It's day 43. I tried breaking the lamp in this room. It did not break to my dismay. It seems unbreakable. I have decided if I cannot break the lamp, I will break the mirrors. I tried removing the mirrors, but they would not budge. Then I broke some of the mirrors with the help of the lamp. I believe they cannot be mended." "AAAHHHHHH. The mirrors are back up. How is this possible? I broke them past mending. How is this happening? Why is this happening to me!??! I wish you were here with me." 

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"It's day 82. I- I tried to-- to kill myself today. I was over being lonely and alone so I thought maybe killing myself would be a better fate than this. But as it turns out I can't even die. I mean I even bled out and then woke up sometime later I felt like shit and the cut I bled out from looked like a shallow cut. As if I hadn't just died from it. This all feels like some sick sort of joke. I wish I knew what was happening. I mean I was always a good person. I tried 

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"It's day hundred- something. I don't even know why I am trapped here. I am so alone. So afraid. I wish I had my friends now. I wish I had not pushed them out of my lif-"

"Do you wish for them to be here with you?"  A voice came from above.

"Of course I do. I wish they were here with me. I wish I could apologize for all the times I made fun of them. I wish I could just say sorry once. Inform them of the fact that I am very ashamed of what I did to them."

"Do you know why you are here?" The voice asked.

"I don't." after a pause I inquired ,"Why am I here? Who are you? Where are you?"

"All will be revealed to you in time." The voice boomed.

"Why can't I know now ?"

There was no reply.