Seungho laid down on the sofa and turned the tv on lazily with the remote. Flipping through the channels, he wrapped the blankets tighter around his slender body. The warmth that the half cup of tea that he just drank slowly spread through his body, but his stomach stiff refused to stop hurting, and he could feel the pain at the tips of his lungs with every deep breath that he took. The illness was really bothering him, it wouldn't give him a rest.
Just wishing for the pain to be gone, he waited for the medication to start working, but the doctors had said that it would take at least a couple of hours before that would happened. Of course, the band members at first tried to satisfy their leader in any possible way, offering to get him drinks, pillows, food, anything, but all Seungho wanted was to just relax, until he would be well. Not showing at all that he was in pain, the leader tried to chase his loved dongsaengs away.
"Seungho, hyung, are you sure you are okay?" Joon stood in front of the tv, covering the screen, as he looked into the other's eyes. Thunder, GO and Mir were taking their jackets on in the hall, getting ready to get the food that they had ordered in a restaurant nearby. Just nodding his head, Seungho avoided Joon's gaze, and stayed quiet. "How come that I don't believe you?" the younger threw back, and folded his arms over his chest.
Seungho glared from under his black, slightly waved bangs, and grunted. "Go and get the food with the others, honey abs idol, I'm fine". The truth was though that Seungho didn't want to seem weak in front of his dongsaengs. He was always the one that the band came to ask for advice, and he never really shared his problems. He was fine with that, as long as he knew that the others felt good.
"Ah my very loved Seungho, no you aren't fine I can see that" Joon replied with a sigh and took a seat besides the leader, who was streched out on the sofa. Lifting up the edge of the blanket, Joon laid down besides Seungho, face to him.
"W-What are you d-doing?!" Seungho gasped and tried to push the other off the sofa, but as soon as he moved the pain hit him like a bat in the stomach. His wrinkled face expression told Joon that something was terribly wrong.
"Honey abs~~! We're leaving now!" GO called out from the hall. "Go without me, I'll be staying here with Seungho hyung!" Joon called back, and wrapped a warm hand around Seungho's stomach. Closing his eyes shut in pain, Seungho tried to remove Joon's hand from his abdomen, but he failed, he was simply too weak. They heard the door being closed, and quiet steps walking away. "St...stop that.." Seungho moaned in pain, even though he didn't want to admit that it made him feel better and it slightly numbed the pain, and yes, Joon's hands at him, even through the fabric of his shirt, felt so good. He wouldn't for anything admit that he liked Joon in that special way.
But of course as the leader, he felt that he had to hold himself back. He couldn't just do whatever he wanted, he had to stay calm, and keep himself together. The pain was making him to give in, let Joon touch him more, but he knew he was stronger than so.
"Shh. Shut up, it'll make the pain go away. It's okay to be weak sometimes. I'm gonna stay here with you until you're okay" Joon assured him in a voice that was just as honey sweet as his abs, in the same time as he slipped his hand under Seugho's shirt, caressing the skin with the hot touch of his fingertips. "This..." Seungho mumbled, his faceexpression a bit more relaxed now, but still not under the influence of medication. "This...?" Joon repeated the other's words as a question.
"This... It's wrong..." Seungho whispered, and just laid still. This time he wouldn't make Joon pull away. Not if he thought that it was "needed". Joon chuckled softly, and did just what Seungho didn't want him to do. Retreating his hands from the others stomach, Joon removed a streak of hair from the leader's face, who still had his eyes closed. "Then... I think I should go..." Joon whispered, his lips almost touching Seungho's ear, his hit breath tickling teasingly. The younger had already his feet on the ground, when he felt a weak grip on his wrist. He knew it. He knew Seungho was weak for him.
But in the same moment, Joon also felt a bit bad about it, he was using the fact that the other was in pain for his gain. Or rather for their both's. He loved Seungho, and he knew that he loved him back, but somehow he never really found the courage to take the step forward. Seungho was just so abstract, Joon never knew how to really approach him in the right way. "Stay" a soft whisper pleaded, before the grip loosened.
Joon turned face to Seungho, ans lowered his head, letting the other feel his how sweet breath brush against his lips. "On one condition Seungho", he whispered, his voice telling clearly that he was fully serious. Seungho weakly opened his eyes and looked at Joon through half-lidded eyes. "Tell me you love me. Tell me you love me, and that you want me, now and forever" Joon whispered bluntly.
Shocked, Seungho just looked at the other in silence. How came, that just in this moment Joon decided to somehow confess his love? Why just in that moment, when he felt so weak for him? "Please... Don't let me go" Begging, Joon looked away. If he got a no, he knew that he would break down. After some seconds of silence, which seemed like an eternity, Joon stood up on shaky legs, and was just going to walk away, when a weak voice, wrinkled in pain whispered; "I love you".
"please, say it again" Joon turned around, and looked pleadingly at the other again. Seungho pressed his hands against his stomach hard, like as the pain was suddenly sharper. "I love you... I want you... Now and forever", Seungho repeated, and closed his eyes again. He didn't regret it, the way Joon was begging for his words was more than enough to give in. He wanted Joon, and this time he wouldn't waste the chance to tell him.
"Oh my god Seungho I love you" Joon whispered and threw himself at the sofa, gently to not hurt Seugho more. Nuzzling his head into the other's neck, he wrapped his arms around the leader and held him as closely to his heart as possible. "Joon...I... It hurts" Seungho blurted out. "I'm sorry" Joon hurried to pull away just enough that he didn't touch the other's stomach but still close. "Let me take you to your bed, you're getting worse" Joon whispered, and got up. Seungho simply nodded, and let Joon carry him in bridal style to their shared room with Mir.
Slowly laying his love down on the bed, Joon kissed his forehead, and pulled the covers up higher over Seungho's relaxed body. "I'll sty with you, all the time" he whispered and laid down besides Seungho. Wrapping his arms around Seungho, and started to caress and touch Seungho's stomach. "Thank you... For everything" the leader whispered, before a drifted off to sleep.
"No, I am the one thanking you" Joon smiled, and kissed the other's neck.
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"Can't you be a little quiet for a while, you retards?" GO asked Thunder and Mir, as he sat on his bed, looking at some pages on the Internet. "yah, or I'll go back to my room and Seungho hung won't get any good sleep at all!" Mir threatened ans threw a popcorn at his hyung. Looking a bit confused GO looked at Mir above the screen. "why would you do that?". "Uhhh... Okay there's no point in that" Mir admitted and stuffed his moth with some more popcorn.
"I wonder though... When did oh-so-famous-honey-abs-idol become so caring? I mean...you know guys", Thunder said, and peeked at GO's screen. "I don't even wanna know" Mir shook his head in disbelief. "You think he would fuck our leader? When he's SICK?" GO asked Thunder, and looked at him excited.
Smirking viciously, the younger licked his lips. "Wouldn't surprise me". Mir grunted, and punched Thunder's shoulder slightly. "Oh god you idiot, I will never sleep in that fucking room again".
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Next morning, when Seungho opened his eyes, the first question in his mind was how he had cane there and which day it was. After realizing that the pain was gone, he smiled, as he remembered how he had came there the night before. His cofession to Joon, and how the other sensitively did everything to make him feel better. Looking at his phone, he realized it was really early.
He was all alone in his bed now, and he had to admit that he thought it was somehow good, since the first night of just sleeping together with Joon, he wanted it to be special. At the other side of the room, Joon's snoring filled the room. Kicking the covers off, noticing how he wore nothing but boxers, the leader blushed, and approached the other's bed.
"Joon" he whispered and shocked the others shoulder gently. Almost right away, Joon sat up and looked around himself in panic. "what?! Are you not feeling good again?" he asked in panic and grabbed Seungho's arm. Smiling his usual warm smile, Seungho sat down at the edge of the the bed and freed himself from Joon's panicking grip. "I'm feeling perfect now. All thanks to you", he smiled shyly. "Oh! That's great!" Joon smiled tiredly, as he scratched the back of his head.
"And about yesterday.." Seungho added, and looked away, more like he was down. "I meant it all" Joon answered scared, quickly. Scared of rejection. " I did too" Seungho replied, and let his hand touch the back of Joon's hand, which was resting lazily on the top of the covers. "So... There is a us now?" Joon asked hopefully, and leaned closer to the leader. "There is" Seungho smiled. Smiling, they wrapped their arms around eachother, as they leaned in for a kiss.So, I recently saw MBLAQ's video for Mona Lisa, and gjkfajfdadskjhdg it was love at first sight, you know.
