law of attraction: visualizing

getting ready for met gala

you wake up hearing your alarm you set up last night 8pm as texting your best friend. as you see your phone and turn off the annoying alarm you decide to get up and at least try to have a peaceful more before the storm starts.

"my anxiety is gonna kill me i swear"

your best friend, who is also a celebrity texted you at the exact moment you were trying to find some guided-meditation and frequencies to play on.

you close your eyes, sitting on the most comfy bed you've ever slept on feeling a cold air, cause you had open the windows. you can also hear ambulances and people talking. honey you are in new york, get over it and try meditate.

after taking deep breaths calming your mind u are finally ready to get up and do some of your schedules for today!

you can hear someone at the door, "good morning, here is your breakfast. hope you enjoy and have an amazing day ahead". sweet.

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you are not really into social media but today you decided to see what's going on.

@ your favorite celeb

"I am excited to see you tonight, we are at the same table. Nervous?"

i almost dropped my phone, still getting used to fame guys. the person sent me this message 35min ago, theres some too that i didn't read but who cares i am a busy busy successful woman. don't have time to that.

"didn't know you were coming!! so exciting. i am kinda nervous but we are on a floating rock so no i am okay thanks for asking. excited for the food"

as always. the glam team came in as stayed there for two hours to help me get ready to give Vogue an exclusive interview. yay.

• recording of the interview

"do you have a crush on somebody on the industry?"

oh god bye.

"i do. but for obvious reasons i won't say who it is cause is probably gonna become a whole mess."

"is the person married or something?" - laughs

"yes!!" -laughs. "unfortunately, he's old old though. isn't this interview supposed to be about me?"

thank god they took it on a fun way and not too dramatic. the interview kept going, too much specific questions but it was fun, i sat there for like ten minutes recording this but for the amount of bad words i said the video is gonna be cut and have five minutes.

looking at the clock on my phone inside the elevator i look up quickly and try pay attention to what my crew of two people are talking about.

"someone posted your outfit for tonight"

what the fuck who did that shit.

"just kidding i love u keep calm"

HOW BITCH.

had to take four deep breaths as the door of the elevator was opening up and five people waiting to come recognized me but were scared to approach, tried asking if they wanted a picture but what if they just were judging me.

suddenly a bunch of messages started coming of the restricted schedules that Met Gala had, including how many minutes and seconds i had to stand there. no time for getting late there. my anxiety says thank you!

"why did i accepted coming here"

said that to myself as everybody in the room i was getting into were getting crazy saying i was late.

the show starts in five hours guys we have time calm down.

see? don't matter how much i say nothing matters and we don't need to worry everything around me says the opposite. maybe i just need some time to myself.

"okay okay you guys i know i am 'late' but can i have ten minutes just for myself? i am pretty sure i am not the only one that has to get into the carpet. we have enough time. you guys have to fix some things too so we all need some time apart right now, okay? ten minutes."

i speak loud so everyone: two girls from glam, three on dress team, two of met gala assistants, three guys of vogue can hear me fully.

why so many people too?

listen, i am very grateful for the opportunity i have but sometimes is just too much.

i head myself into my own room who is thank god very quiet and cozy with everything where it belongs. i lay down in bed quietly take a few deep breaths saying calm things for myself and asking my angels and guides to turn this day into something peaceful and positive for me and everybody around me.

took three sips of water, feeling more calm i look at the window with a few people walking, some getting into taxis and of course people talking.

feeling grateful to be alive and ready to face today, and not taking everything so serious cause at some point today's anxiety is gonna end.

so, enjoy the now as it is right now.

that's what i did, asked Alexa to play my favorite songs and started dancing them throwing pillows around the room and picking some things and clothes to take my warm shower!

this time for myself just made my day so much better.

"feeling okay? we are all ready"

someone of the team sent me this message as i was getting ready to leave the room feeling fresh brand new.

"yup babe"

i swear i am the most calm person ever. meditation works y'all.

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the video for vogue was great, didn't talk too much. just the basic and they basically recorded me interacting with some of the team. filmed me on my phone, on a video chat with someone i am very close to.