What would you think
You know...
If I commited
"SHE seemed fine today"
"I don't know why SHE did it"
"SHE'S gone"
It's funny
Even if I fucking died
You still wouldn't have the least bit of respect
"Its just so hard for me"
"Ive always known you as my little girl"
"Its hard when you wear things like that"
"Thats my DAUGHTER"
It's like you're mocking me
Making fun of me
I know even if I say something
It's just too "hard" for you
You could never
NEVER IN YOUR GODDAMN LIFE
"I care about you"
"I would be so heartbroken if I lost you"
"We just want the best for you"
I hate you
So much
...
You know,
Sometimes I feel like it's getting better
And then this happens
We will just joke around
Have simple conversations
Normal
And then it happens
It's like a million mirrors shattering in my head
And I feel like this
Over the past few months it's started again
I feel like I'm drouning
The missing assignments
I try
But sometimes I just can't
I can't take care of my self
I think I want to
I think I do
But I just don't have the energy
Of course
You are doing just fine
Just going about your day
Not a thought in your head
You are doing just fine
And if you are okay
SURELY
WITHOUT A DOUBT
IM JUST DANDY TOO
IM DOING GREAT
I'm doing great
Im
I'm not okay
I have the option
The "supplies"
An old pill bottle with old meds that I "forgot" to take
Shimmering metal
Hm blades
Why,
I know where all the random pills and medication are
I have all of that
At almost any time
I have the option
My options are narrowing down
It could be as easy as that
Simple
Very simple
Iloveyou
