My significant said to stop making you cry.
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Chili pov
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I can't believe that this is happening.
I'm actually not sure how to feel.
There is a huge swarm of emotions in my head and it's traveling downward to the pit of my stomach. It hurts in a way, but it also feels amazing. I gaze at rye's lips.
"I kinda wanna kiss you. Oh my god I'm so sorry I didn't mean to say it like that- I should-" my words are cut off by her lips landing on mine.
God. It's the most perfect feeling ever.
It lasted like 10 seconds but it felt like an eternity. I wish it'd lasted longer.
We stare at each other in shock for a moment before rye lets out a giggle.
"I'm sorry... I just thought you wanted to... kiss... ahahah!" She moves her eyes downward and I laugh a bit. "Ah no, no... you don't need to be sorry I just- was thinking about it and I accidentally said it out loud..." she smiles at me. "Well, I'm probably gonna get goin'." I remember that I'm sitting on her lap. I quickly get off of her and sit back down on the couch where she was sitting before she got up. She walks to the door and opens it before she turns around. "Uhh... Love you bye!" She runs out the door and it shuts on its own.
I sigh and tilt my head backwards, still overwhelmed with emotion. Well I do feel happy. I could dig around in my brain of emotion like a teenagers messy room and I could still find that happiness in there. But, it's just that.. do I really deserve this? Do I really deserve all of this? This is all hitting me at one time and It's overwhelming. Oh, trust me, I do really love rye. More than anything. She's one of the most perfect people I've ever met and I'd take a bullet for her any second but.. I don't deserve to be around someone like her. She's so perfect. And I'm horrible. Every aspect about myself makes me absolutely sick. But I really need to give myself a break. A break. From bashing myself in the brain every 5 seconds— I could like.. take a walk or something? I dunno. Maybe I should just stay inside for a while. But that walk does sound nice. I get up from the couch and head to my front door, bedhead and all. I open the door and the sun blinds me and gives me a 5 second headache, I place my hand on my forehead, blocking the sun from my eyes. The atmosphere seems lively; cookies are walking around everywhere and some are walking with others. I hear chatting and laughing and a lot of other noises I can't make out. I decide to take a trail that creates a square around the kingdom— and avoid all social contact. After walking for about half an hour I head back to my house. I flop down on the couch and ended up falling asleep.
