The Beauty Within You!

Sandara's Journey with God

Iam just a teenage girl trying hard as possible to keep up the spiritual connection between me and god

Although it's hard to admit with all the things going on with my parents and friends.

Iam confused and sometimes madly just sit there and talk to myself and thinking "ohh will someone see my pain"all i know is why why and why my life should be like This and

everybody around me is hurting me,cursing me and teasing me for my imperfections

i can't go through this,worst of all i curse and hurt my own myself putting myself down like you are worthless,u can't do anything and more!!

Went to Church prayed and praised felt some relieve and every night read the bible and prayed and knee before him that my life would turn around one day and i was a good girl in Christ didn't say bad words and no bad attitude but...

One day i turned the wrong side just for a instance and everything appeared before my eyes and i couldn't believe the person i became,i stopped praying and reading the bible and began cursing everyone around me with a bad attitude and bad language

All came soo suddenly that i didn't have time even the speak a word,the world was burning in fire it was like as if the world was ruled by Satan.

Everywhere i see there is hate,anger,happiness coming to end,marriages going in vain,children adopting to bad habits and men being violent to women,abusive parents and war!!!

My mind was going around in circles it was mixing up with all the good and bad felt like bad is wining and the good was fating and me on the other hand was trying to be the person i was and was trying to see good again but then i realised once you see bad your are bad from all the dirty thoughts and language you are done i MEAN finished completely!! there is no good in you

But No...from all the things happening around me i sat down like i used to and searched the meaning of life,all i did was taking all the bad and all good perhaps like a puzzle form and joined all of them then i realised for all the good there is bad and people tend to think more of themselves than others and that's why they hurt others because they don't care about their feelings

And the way you look the shape of you HE said in 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 "do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body"

So now my question to you is why do you care what people say about your shape,he said its the way he wanted and its his temple and its your duty to keep it clean and safe and you may think what about the people who hurting themselves he said:-

in Matthew 11: 28-30 "Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."

And now Hate he said in 1 john 4:20 "If anyone says, "I love God," and hates his brother, he is a liar for he who does not love his brother whom he has seen cannot love God whom he has not seen"

see you must have peace among yours brothers and sisters no hate god doesn't like it so who ever hates the grace of god over them perishes and there where hate grows stronger and the devil takes control of you easily

And about ANGER He said:- in psalm 37:8 "Refrain from anger, and forsake wrath! Fret not yourself; it tends only to evil." and in proverbs 14:29 "Whoever is slow to anger has great understanding, but he who has a hasty temper exalts folly."

SO see its just the temptation of the evil don't be fooled by it

War :- James 4: 1-2 "What causes quarrels and what causes fights among you? Is it not this, that your passions are at war within you? You desire and do not have, so you murder. You covet and cannot obtain, so you fight and quarrel. You do not have, because you do not ask."

all these wars are just because our impatiences we must listen before anything we say and think about it for a while then act but the world is opposite now days

Isn't it clear now, i was fooled by the devil all this time god tested me and i failed to please him and now i realised if u see the world in a another way it is full of beauty but do you have what it takes to be beautiful and feel beautiful in Christ and not to care what others tell you and i know it seems hard to do instead of saying but at least worth giving a try to change yourself and love god and yourself and not falling as a prey for the devil don't you think?

Will you see the beauty of the third heaven before entering the first heaven ?