Drowning

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I feel as if i'm drowning,
Drowning in a pool of my own thoughts.

A lifeguard stands by,
But never enters the water
As if afraid of drowning themselves

A lifesaver is thrown
I gasp for air as I desperately try to reach
But alas it slips through my fingertips

Bystanders begin to notice my struggle but no one says a word
Quietly watching as I sink deeper and deeper

Suddenly I see a shadow and become hopeful that someone has come to my rescue
Only to find that in reality the shadow I see is from a shark they call anxiety quickly swimming tward me
Paralyzed I can only watch as anxiety swallows me whole

The water apears calm now
I no longer cry out for help
The lifeguards simply assume i'm alright now
The bystanders have forgotten that I even needed help in the first place

I'm alone now.
Just me, and my thoughts hidden behind the mask anxiety has made for me
I don't want to annoy anyone with my problems

I still cry out for help
Buy no one can hear me anymore
Depression, like an octopus wraps it's tentacles around my mouth, around my throat
Silencing me.

I try to free myself from his grasp but only hurt myself further in the process..
My arms showing all the proof of my struggle
But no one seems to look
No one ever seems to look.

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