lost cause

My Lonely Life

Ever since the day I was born, I've always felt an emptiness in my heart. It feels like something is always missing and doesn't feel right.

By the way, I am Adrien Castillo Villanueva, and I'm 20 years old, and I'm a College student.

Living my life wasn't hard nor am I happy about it. It's the same old story of a perfectly normal young adult living his life.

I go to university, as usual. I met my two bestfriends, Alex and Dalton, on the way to my first class.

We were friends since high school, but I barely know them, and I don't want to sound too anti-social, but really, they're the only people I like hanging out with.

After our first class, we all decided to skip the next one. Alex had this crazy personality, and Dalton is just kinda getting carried away by the flow.

How I wish I had their carefree personalities. Unfortunately, for me, I can never feel that way, or more precisely, I stopped feeling that way, since my Mom died two years ago.

When I was just a kid, I've always felt different, but my Mom is always there to cheer me up, and ever since her death, I have tried to stop myself from ever feeling happiness.

Don't get me wrong, I am still longing for fulfillment in my life, I just don't know how I would feel about it. It's just not the same with my Mom.

So, look where it got me, I am here with my only two friends trying to find myself and testing the waters, feeling if I ever deserve any happiness in my life.