Heart and Soul (a Your Turn to Die/ Kimi ga Shine fanfiction)

Chapter 1

My name is Alice Yabusame. I'm a sixth grader at Yokusa Elementary. I'm really just a normal kid, normal life, normal family, normal school. Well, normal for me.

Despite my name, I was born male, and I am growing up as a female.

"Oh, so you're just transgender? Woe is you." But I'm not. This switch in sex isn't a choice, it's a rule.

I don't really know how this started... all I know is that my mom didn't like that I was a boy so she started raising me as a girl. I asked my dad why she did that once and all he said was: "First a daughter, then a son."

Which, I don't really understand.

The thing is that it's not just me, but my sister, Reko, too. She was born a female but has been growing up as a male. Though all of this nonsense doesn't seem to effect her as much.

"Hey bro!" I hear Reko yell from the end of the hall where our room is, "Come look at this!"

I just got back from the store with my mom, she let me get a mochi for behaving, but the cold was hurting my teeth so I'm letting it warm up in my hand. Well, might as well see what Reko wants.

"Coming!" I tell back running towards the noise. I trip over in the sandals mom got me recently and I fall on the floor and grimace. The mochi is on the ground... five second rule. I stuff the whole thing in my mouth, cold and all. After I shriek the best I can because of the mouthful of ice in my mouth, I move it around in my mouth to warm up the mochi with squeezed closed eyes. Ugh, stupid sandals.

I tear the sandals off my feet and get to our room.

"What took you so long? Did you get lost?" Reko asks with a smile, "Haven't we lived here for seven years? You should know your way around, bro." She bursts out laughing at her own joke like it was someone else who said it.

"Yeah yeah," I say rolling my eyes with a smile. "What did ya wanna show me?"

"Hm? Oh!" Reko says with excitement. She hops onto her stool next to the keyboard. "It took me two days, but I finally got Clair de Lune down! Wanna hear?"

I nod eagerly, it's always great to hear Reko play a soothing melody on the piano, it de stresses my day without her knowing.

The first beautiful chord of "Clair de Lune" rings in my ears, already I'm cooled down. Maybe that's why she can deal with mom's shenanigans better than me. She has a real coping mechanism: music. All I have is the super cold mochi that mom occasionally buys me if I'm lucky. I should probably get something more real soon... we have a very musical family, so I could probably learn something from a family member.... but how do I even know if music will be my thing? There's so much out there that possibilities swirl around in my head, making a whirlpool, and causing me to only half-focus on Reko's song.

"How was it?" She asks eagerly once she hit the last note. I smile and applaud, all this hard thinking can wait for later. She laughs and takes a bow on her stool. I almost ask her about teaching me to play the piano, but I shut out the thought. There's things I want to try before piano, so I'll ask AFTER I try those.

I lay in bed and think about all the possibilities of hobbies/coping mechanisms. I've heard of many people like me going out of their way to hurt themselves, wether it be with a knife or their own bodies.

I'm not going to lie when I say that I did contemplate that as a possibility for a little while, but when I looked over at Reko, tossing and turning in her bed, still wide awake (but only keeping the lights out so I could sleep), and I realized I couldn't.

"You should seriously get a book light, sis," I whisper in the darkness.

"Wha-?!" She jolts up out of surprise, she doesn't seem groggy so I know I didn't awake her. "Commooooooon, you're still up?!" She whines. "I could've stayed up longer actually doing something productive."

"It's not like I wanna be," I say with a yawn, "just one of those days that my body doesn't likes me and wants to keep me awake."

"You got somethin' on your mind?" She asks with a rare amount of care for Reko.

"Tch, I don't know," I mumble as I roll over on my side. I notice my cheeks getting hot so I pull my pajama's hood over my face even though Reko can't see me in the dark.

"Serrriouslllyyy, what's uuuuuup?" Reko pries. "Ya mad at mom again? Get inta a fight?"

"No," I grumble.

"Ugh, Alice, you're seriously the WORST to question. You're as tough as a brick wall."

"I'll take that as a compliment."

"Ugh, common." She gets up out of her bed and starts poking me. "Hey, hey," she says with every poke, "what's wrong? What's wrong? What's wrong????"

"H-hey!! Stop that!! Reko!!" I say as I try to swat her hand away, "Go. Back. To. Beeeeeeeed."

"NOOO."

"Dang it, Reko!!! Fine, I'll tell you alright?!" I sigh. "I need a way to cope with stuff, so I'm trying to figure something out."

Reko stays silent for a couple of seconds, then cocks her head, her hair slipping down with it. "That's it?" She says, "what's so hard about that?"

I stay silent now, just laying there.

"Were ya, like, thinking of cutting yourself or something? Was that why?" Reko asks.

"Ergh, no..."

"Then what's the issue?" She says, I hear the sound of the springs in the mattress as she hops back into her bed.

"I don't know..."

"You're weird, bro," she says with a laugh. "Welp, good luck thinking of something, I guess. Oh! And also, how much is a book light?"

AN: hello hello! just a couple little things from me now that you've gotten a good taste of my style.

1) I don't have an update schedual. I write this when I feel like it and I just want to keep this a hobby.

2) I would rate this story "PG13" or "Teen" for language and concepts that are in YTTD already.

3) Many of these characters' names besides ones found in the cannon game are completly made up.

4) THIS STORY IS FANNON NOT CANNON.

5) There isn't any romance or ships in this fanfic, so if you want that, find something else. There may be some small mentions of NaoReko content but since the story is from Alice's perspective, these are only small occurrances that could be seen as platonic as well.

6) If you have any critiques besides "this sucks" or "this is ass", or anything along those lines. Feel free to give me advice/ideas. I don't really know where I'm going with this fic and I'd love some REAL input!

7) There will be author's notes, but only at the end of each chapter like there is here. If there is something I would like to put in an author's note in the middle of a story, I'll just put a *, because having ANs in the middle of a sentance is quite annoying.

That's it. Hopefully I'll see you soon.