Diamond Williams.
📍Compton LA, California.
"Come in." I stepped to the side while he walked into the small living room of my momma's house here in Compton, I wouldn't say I still lived here since all of my stuff is back in Italy but my room here is still my room with my old bed.
A hotel would be way too expensive so I just stayed here with my momma and little brother, my mom was currently out with my auntie doing some grocery shopping and my brother went to basketball practice.
And me, I was about to have the hardest conversation of my life.
"So you finally decided to talk to me huh." Jordan folded his arms while he looked at me.
"The phone works both ways Jordan so miss me with that bullshit." I pushed past him into the kitchen, hearing his footsteps behind me.
"You said you needed time, you wanted to take a break so I respected that." He said while I sat down on the counter.
"You were all over Brenda while I was in Italy and had the nerve to question me." I scoffed and he shook his head.
"I never cheated on you D." He looked me in the eyes and I couldn't find a hint if he was lying or not, he seems genuine but you can never be sure.
Looking away from his stare I let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding.
"Did you think during your break ?" He asked stepping closer to where I was sitting on the counter, he placed his hands on both sides of me caging me in.
"Yeah," I mumbled looking down at his hands.
"And ?"
"I think we should break up." I looked up from his hands with glossy eyes and saw his eyes show the same glossiness.
"Why ?" He cleared his throat.
"It's not working anymore J, I love you I do. But I'm not in love with you anymore and you not in love with me anymore-"
"Don't tell me how I'm feeling." He shook his head.
"I'm going, to be honest even though I don't talk to him anymore, but I felt feelings when I was with Michele. I'm not in love with him but I had butterflies." I was honest and a tear fell from my eyes in the process.
"So you cheated ?" He asked.
"No, I never cheated. But I think meeting him and realizing that I had feelings for him was my final push to finally take a step back from us." I said and he smacked his lips pulling away from me taking a step back.
"I don't wanna end this bruh !" He ran his hand through his hair.
"J this ended the moment I stepped on that plane to Italy and you know that. We grew away from each other, it's not healthy for us to hold on. All we do is argue-"
"Yeah because you are on the fucking another side of the world for no fucking reason." He cut me off and I nodded.
"Yes, because that's my dream. And I'm not going to give up the dream I had since I was a teenager to save a relationship that is doomed anyway, I always wanted to study overseas and everyone knew that including you. I made sure we were good, everyone was good when I left. But we weren't strong enough for the distance and we have to respect that." I saw a tear fall out of his eyes.
I understand that it's hard for him, it's hard for me too. He's all I know, my first love.
"You can't tell me that you don't have any type of feelings for Brenda." I chuckled because I was sure that he did, but I wasn't allowed to be mad because I had the same with Michele.
