It was Monday morning . She woke up startled to her alarm . She thought to herself why another day . It got harder and harder for her to get out of bed because she realised that nothing was changing . She was waking up every morning to do the same crap . She was tired . She felt drained .She couldn't be bothered to get up anymore and she wished it could all end
She went to school with a smile everyday she always looks happy . But on the inside she was hurting ,hurting real hard. She couldn't explain her feeling so it was easier to be happy. She was even fooling herself at this point , till she realised as soon as someone asked her if she was okay her eyes would tear up and mascara would smudge all over her face . She was weak . She couldn't hold anything heavy . She couldn't even have a conversation with you . She would stutter and forget all her words . Like she couldn't speak? She can't explain why though
Nobody's notices how much you were hurting till your gone . They will make an effort to speak to you but it never went as planned as she didn't know what to say. She always had earphones in , nobody could quite understand . But she knew it was her only escape. Every thing felt like it was closing in on her like there was no where to go like she was trapped . She tried screaming but know one could hear . She tried talking but nothing came out . What was happening to the lively sweet innocent girl .
She walked around school on her own head held low hood up ear phones dangling down to her phone . Her mum worried "you okay" Yh mum I'm fine "you sure " yes mum I'm fine lmao . Nobody quite new how deep she was in this
It was like a black while and she was being sucked in . Nothing or know one could help her . She was trapped . Anxiety getting to her . She couldn't breath . Always taking deep breaths and getting deaf stared but they didn't realise she was gasping for air . She tried to cover her self up as much as possible , but then she felt fat pathetic horrible .
She started getting moody with everyone but she was just "tired" she was fooling everyone. She wanted attention but she didn't . She gets so overwhelmed when someone asks if she's okay .Nobody understands.
One day she will be in the sky with her favourite people relatives mates pets which were best friends . And everyone will forget her .She'll have a safe place she can call home . Maybe that day will come sooner than expected .
