Next to you

Chapter 18 (part 3)

Wess is resting, his arms comfortably folded under his head, with his grin visible in his face. He didn't even bothered covering himself with a blanket and that embarasses me.

Maya't maya ay tinitingnan niya ako. Nakatalikod ako sa kanya pero ramdam ko pa rin yung tingin niya. I am sneaked under the blanket, pulling it up until my chin. I never said a word, neither does he since the moment he rolled off me. I didn't tried to get up either, knowing na hindi naman niya ako papayagan.

After a moment of silence, he stifled a moan. I feel that again, Wess is aroused. Nararamdaman ko sa likod ko. "I'm not yet sated, neither satisfied." I heard him whispher in my ears. "I want you again."

I didn't bother to answer. I don't want to answer. "Was it bad?" I want to scream. Tell him it is bad. Tell him I didn't like it. Tell him I don't want him. But I will be lying, so I opted not to answer.

Wess is now making me turn towards him, but I shook my back, pushing his hand off. "Aren't you tired of resisting Andrianne? Just turn around and look at me." He sounded annoyed and threatening.

Slowly, I turned around. At dahil nga iniinda ko pa rin yung sakit hindi ko napigil ang pagtakas ng isang luha sa mata ko. It is my first time after all, and he is not gentle at all. Even a bit.

"Does it hurt?" I felt like the old Wess is back but it's only for a few seconds. "Oh well, you asked for it, if only you didn't resisted too much. Your too stubborn."

"Is this what you want then?" I sak him with a cold voice. "When you can't have what you want, you just take it." I looked at him with disgust. "What a great man you are then, Wess."

I saw his jaw harden. "I only learned from the expert. Now Adrianne, tell me. Tell me about it. Gusto kong marinig ang sagot mula sayo. When you can't have what you want, you just take it? Like what you did to me? Oh come on." I felt his anger rising. "You are not tamed yet, are you? Didn't I already show you what you get when you insult me?"

I bitterly laugh. "Oh yes you did. You clearly showed me. Should I be scared then?" I stand up, still firmly holding the blanket. The next thing that is heard in the room is a loud snap. I just slapped Wess.

"You bitch" Wess rolled over me, and pinned me to the bed. "Tame me?" I'm scared but I won't let Wess see it. "Dream again Wess! You can use your strength, but you can't make me bow down, do you want to know why? It's because I love you, and I know I already have a special place it that stone heart of yours. Takot ka lang. Takot ka lang na aminin, that's why you are erasing everything about me that made you feel special and loved."

Wess didn't reply, he just hold my wrist with bruising force. It hurts, but I refuse to show it.

"You have me. You know I love you. Pero bakit ganon? Bakit hindi mo ako makita? You claim that I am the reason kaya kayo naghiwalay, but can't you see? Kung talagang mahal ka niya, kahit ikaw pa ang pinakamahirap na tao sa buong mundo, pakakasalan ka pa rin niya. I told you, I just saved you from that goddamn loveless marriage of yours!!" I looked at Wess. He is glaring at me.

"You poor little kid, hindi mo alam kung ano ang tama at mali. Hindi na tama ang function ng isip mo." Wess looked really mad now. "That's it! Now whatever I do to you will be justified. How dare you lecture me. You bitch, you fucking whore. No one is allowed to talk to me like that. I'm a broken man beacuse of you, low life."

He abruptly let go of me to cup my face and grab my neck like he is going to strangle me. "You are crossing theline this time." He told me in a threatening voice. "Seems like you did not learned your lesson yet. I can repeat it for you to remember what your place is."

"In hell with you? That's what you want, isn't it? Then forget it. You can humiliate me, but you cannot break me. I'll make you regret it. I'm telling you. Someday you will love me, the way I love you."

"I don't think so." He finally bent down to kiss me, force his mouth to open and taste me once again. And when his tongue meets mine, he rip the sheets of my body and I am naked underneath him again. He never use such violence. He used his knees to force my legs to open, when he thrust in me with all his strength.

I cried in his mouth, wildly trying to break free, but it's useless. I stop tossing around and just lifts my hand to cup his face. My lips soften against him and maybe that shocked him, so he stop kissing me. He raised his gaze and meet my eyes. He is still deep in my body but he is not moving anymore.

Then my hands force his head to bend once more and I slightly rise up to meet my lips in his. It's slow and and my mouth carreses his lips, like its the first time I kissed him. I lingered on him, then leaving his lips, I placed light kisses all over his cheeks and chin. I lowered down to go to his neck. Wess closed his eyes savouring my kisses as I go down his collarbone.

"What are you doing?" He asked me. I didn't answer, but I raised up again, and my lips go back to him, this time more demanding. He opened his mouth and I slip my tongue in. I kissed him in my own will, tasting him, exploring him. Telling him how much I love him.

I touch his face. My mouth melted with him. I want to make him feel special, love, precious and delicate. And nit a man who would force himself on me with such violence.

He started moving inside me again. My legs laced up on his legs, while my hands leave his face and reach his hips. My legs, my hands, my mouth. Now he is trapped. "What do you want now Ianne?"

My lips leave his and I arches against him. My hands on his hips, my body moving with himlike we are dancing.

I moaned. Wess looked at me, he looked at me with amusement, with lust and something more? Is that love?

I cling on him, still lokoking on his eyes, and I feel something change in him too. I then let out my last loud cry of pleasure, and Wess stayed inside me for as long as I can't remember. I embraced him, like I never want him to leave. Like I never want to let go.

Then, sometime later, I slightly move and he rolled off me, but I still don't want to let go. He laid his neck on my neck. He hugged me, aand kept me close to him. When I heard his soft breathing, and noticed that he is already sleeping, I whisphered "I love you."

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I woke up the next morning feeling sore. It still hurts down there. I looked at my side and found no one. Umalis na ba si Wess? O well, did I really expected na andito pa rin siya? Silly me.

I began to pick up the clothes, na basta basta na lang itinapon kagabi. When I looked at the bed sheet, I saw a red stain. It just signify that I am a virgin and Wess is my first. So much for calling me a whore.

Mabilis akong pumunta sa bathroom. Maybe a little hot shower would ease the pain. Or maybe it won't.

Papasok na ako sa CR nang may makita akong papel sa side table. "Meet me at my SWEET LATTE later. Let's talk." He wants to talk to me, as so am I.
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