Home of Hopes (Caledonia Series #1)

Chapter 5

Chapter 5

Eavesdrop

Every time I look at myself in the mirror, I feel like I'm not content with my looks. Well, I am sometimes, but when Benjamin glares at me, nothing happens. It feels like I'm just something common to him. I wish that he would like me the way I am. I am more than enough. If he just let me fit into his heart, I could be whoever he wanted to be. If he wants a good and responsible girl, I will make it, but sometimes it feels like I'm just desperate for his attention.

Huminga ako nang malalim habang hindi makabasag-pinggan kong binaba ang hawak ko. The mini mirror reflected Charlotte's face. I just sighed and looked at her through it, who was busy with her cellphone.

I envy to her for the attention I'm looking for. Benjamin allowed her to be part of his life. I don't know if it's just a friendly thing or I just can't accept the fact that she is more than me. Surely, my life is almost perfect, but not all the things I want. I will start with that right away. Lola told me once that not everything I wanted and wished for would be granted. If I want to have one, then make up your mind if you can use it in the future. If I wish to be Benjamin's flavor of his heart, how? I can't hold his feelings like one person trying to slap me.

"Ano 'yang ginagawa mo, Calla?" usisa ni Charlotte nang binalingan niya ang tinapat ko sa kanya. Agaran ko naman itong nilayo at tinago sa bag ko. Umiling ako.

"Wala naman, Char. Sino'ng ka-text mo?" Inusog ko pa ang isang upuan ko patungo sa kanya.

The southern wind blew my hair away, making me close my eyes a bit. And I saw Charlotte's trembling lips when she looked at me. I just raised my right eyebrow.

"What? Unless you have anything to hide from me?"

Nilayo niya ang kanyang mga mata sa akin. Slowly, I shifted my body position and stood up immediately when I saw the panic in her eyes. Nilahad ko ang kamay ko, gustong makuha ang tinitingnan niya sapagkat siya naman ay halatang-halata sa pagtago niya ng kanyang cellphone sa bulsa.

I just sat down again with my maroon skirt. I rolled my eyes, unsatisfied.

"W-wala naman akong tiantago, pero k-kailangan ko ng privacy, C-Calla," nakayuko niyang ani. Lumingon ako sa kanya at tinaas pa lalo ang kilay ko.

Come on, darling, you can't fool me.

"Privacy?" diin kong bigkas at nilapag ang likod sa sandigan ng upuan didto sa labas ng cafeteria. I rolled my eyes and crossed my legs in a sexy way.

"I need privacy, Calla," malambot niyang sabi.

"Ow! Is privacy right... But when you peek at my phone, nothing is a big deal to me. If you don't have anything to hide from me or from us, then why you just hide your phone right away... when I just moved a bit just to find what you're busy at? "

"Calla, please. Ahm..."

"What?" sarcasm kong tawa sa kanya. "You think I never know?"