[TW: mentions of rape, blood, abortion. If you are uncomfortable, u are gladly welcome to leave. Do not report this. Also, this story has names of official companies. This is neither to spread any rumor about them nor to badmouth them. Please do not spread hate because u are a fan of the company. This story is just a fanfiction, learn to take it in the fanfic way. None of these happened or is going to happen in real life.]
Kun and Doyoung have become an official couple since 2018. It was the date of their second anniversary when they decided to become intimate with each other. Both loved the moment, but Doyoung being a bit too observative, noticed Kun shivered at the slight touch on his body. He shrugged it out thinking it was due to immense pleasure but after some thinking, he realized that pleasure doesn't give out shivers like which Kun had. He also noticed Kun was scared and his eyes shake whenever he is in fear. That all makes sense now. Doyoung justified that Kun never felt safe around Doyoung so he did not become intimate with Kun for 5 months. Probably, he thought he would be heart broken later.
But Doyoung never noticed, that this was far away from the truth.
Kun on the other hand thought Doyoung never loved him, but loved his body. When Kun thought he failed to pleasure him anymore, his heart broke. He cried day and night, rethinking why he had accepted Doyoung's proposal that day. It had been no matter of time when Kun started to cut himself.
Both of them, one day, decided to see whther they still had feelings, so Doyoung drove off with Kun to the beach side at night. It was really peaceful and a good place to talk out things.
DY: Kun I know we haven't been intimate for a while but-
K: Are you satisfied with me?
DY: Excuse me, what-
K: I FUCKING SAID IF YOU WERE SATISFIED WITH ME!!
DY: Honey-
K: You gonna call me honey?? After 5 months of no intimacy, no skinship, always saying you were at work, is it helping? You never loved me. You always used my body. And now, Im gonna get dumped after a few minutes, isn't it?
DY: HEAR ME OUT FIRST!! You should not assume like that.
K: I ain't interested but go on.
DY: I OBSERVED WHILE WE WERE BING INTIMATE. YOU WOULD SHAKE, NOT IN PLEASURE, BUT FEAR. YOUR EYES WOULD SHAKE. IT IS AS IF I WAS FORCING YOU WHEN I CLEARLY AM NOT. I SERIOUSLY WANTED YOU TO STAY HAPPY AND I KNEW THAT YOU FELT UNCOMFORTABLE AROUND ME SO I BECAME DISTANT WITH YOU KNOWING THAT YOU NEVER FELT SAFE WITH ME.
Kun was shocked. He never expected this. He thought the opposite but Doyoung loved him because of him and he truly noticed those things which other members did not. The poor man thought he never felt comfortable and decided to not go intimate unless consent is approved of the later. He bursted into tears but Doyoung grabbed him by the shoulder and hugged him.
'Its okay, not everyone everytime can be a knight.'
After Kun calmed down, he told Doyoung a secret he never told anyone.
Flashback:-
Trainer: "Qian Kun right??"
The person was looking at him so closely that predebut Kun was scared. He felt uncomfortable under the stare and he thought it just would be a couple of minutes and he would start training under Starship Entertainment (Im sorry in advance read tw). But he was caught off guard when the trainer said something.
"You aren't fit to be under Starship you know? Your dance is horrible, vocals not good and your Korean is trash. We cannot bring you like this.......unless-"
"Unless what sir??"
"Are you a virgin?"
"Um, yes, why?"
"Give me your virginity and Ill make you debut."
Kun choked on air. He did not expect these words to come out and was firm with a NO at first but the manager forced him to
He met with Changkyun (known as I.M., omg omg my actual bias wrecker along with Shownu) and Changkyun told him that the managers would do like that and he was once a victim of that. He even reported to the police but the police acted as if nothing was wrong. But Kun was said he would debut and he had a false imperception he would debut.
ALAS!! After 5 years o0f training he was said he would not debut. He cried shouting his virginity was given away for nothing and the manager went away smirking. He went back to Fujian but then his family cussed out after knowing the truth.
"YOU AREN'T ELIGIBLE TO BE IN THE QIAN FAMILY?? NO WONDER YOU DID NOT DEBUT. ALWAYS SPENDING TIME IN THE CLUB."
Kun never saw his family after that.
Flashback to present now:-
Doyoung now knew why Kun was behaving like that. He promised he would protect his lover from now on.
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FanfictionKun and Doyoung are an official couple right now. But something triggers Kun and he tells Doyoung the most hidden secret he had in his life.
