Remember that Gulf Kanawut ☀️🌻

It's a rainy day and I'm in need of a MewGulf fluff 😫
So I wrote this!

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Gulf Kanawut woke up from his nightmare, breathing hard, sweating and shaking in fear.

He looked to his right, there lying on the bed is the love of his life, Mew Suppasit who's sleeping calmly.

Insecurities eating Gulf up

Eyes starting to tear up, he tried to hold his sobs in so that he won't wake Mew up, he tried! but the fear is really eating him up and finally he couldn't control it anymore, he starts crying and let his sobs out, just staring at the love of his life and not knowing what to do with himself.

Mew turned in his sleep, automatically reaching out to touch his Gulf but felt nothing...
His eyes quickly opened trying to look for Gulf when he saw the love of his life...
crying...

"Why is he crying?" he thought to himself and quickly sat up and moved himself nearer to Gulf who's at the edge of their bed. Mew held and softly caress Gulf's thighs lovingly, trying to calm him. 

But Gulf just cries and sobbed harder and louder, his face wet with more and more tears

In a split second seeing Gulf cries, Mew's heart felt something.
He felt  pain, and the pain instantly makes him sad too.

That's when he realised that this pain he's feeling is because he hates seeing Gulf cry.
He hates it.
He hates this pain he's feeling.

"Tua-eng... what's wrong? Why are you crying?" Mew says softly while also softly pulling Gulf towards him by Gulf's waist.

Gulf only replies with more sobs.

"Tua-eng,.. please... tell me why you're crying?... Please don't do this to me. You're worrying me" Mew said, he himself almost tearing up.

Few more seconds of more sobbing on Gulf's side and more pain on Mew's side.

But what Mew didn't expect was to get more pain to his heart when Gulf suddenly said...

"You don't love me" Gulf said, followed by another sob.

To that, Mew's eyes wide opened, sleep nowhere to be found anymore on this man's face. All you can see is 'pain' in his face.
With his eyes wider, his skin getting paler, his lips and hands suddenly trembling as he was shocked to hear what he just heard.

"What?..." Mew manages to breath out in disbelief.
"What are you saying—" Mew tried to argue in disbelief but couldn't finish his sentence when he's cut off by Gulf.

"You don't love me. How could //sobs// you have loved me //sobs// when all I do is make your life difficult having to care for me". More sobs by Gulf Kanawut.

Mew's eyebrows furrowed together. The pain look in his face is now mixed with the look of anger.

"How can Gulf say this? Have I not loved him enough? All I've shown him all this while is love and only love... What did I do wrong?" Mew thought to himself, anger not towards Gulf but anger towards himself.

Disappointed. Disappointed in himself, thinking he's hurt Gulf without knowing. How long has he hurt Gulf? The pain in his heart kept getting stronger, "oh I deserve this pain", he thought.

"I've hurt the love of my life for so long and I didn't even know". Mew whispered to himself.

Mew's hands that were on Gulf's waist softly kneads him, him thumbs caressing Kanawut's slim waist