I walk in the woods by myself alone and cold it's not the first time and I know it will be the last...my heart races and tears go down my face..I've tried to get better..hm...it's funny..I've tried many things but I always seemed to fail or fuck up some how...I've made promises but I can't seem to keep them.. And ima break the most given promise tonight.. Like my whole life I'm sorry...I've always been sorry...I look down at my arms and glance at the old and recent scars... I look towards the sky and the tears run faster the only warmth I'm getting...the hot tears feeling like fire burning my eyes as I look up at the sky...I scream why.. A question I could never answer a question everyone's going to be asking in the morning...It hurts knowing others will hurt but I just don't know...I know they will get over it..eventually.... I'm tiered... I've been tiered for a long time... 16 years long... Everyone I let know me try to help me rest even for a moment.. But there's always something making me stay up..I hate it with a passion..it's like poison...I pour love but hate slips in no matter how hard I try... There goes that word again..try..but here's a common word a word that helps describe my life..fail.. I try and fail..maybe one day I'd do something right... But I guess it's a little to late for that... I lost my chances...and now I stand here with tears on my face alone and cold my scars showing...tonight ill rest
