yourthereasonifallinlove

idk shat to call this

This is going to be kinda short but ye.

Recently, Jess has been really careful with what she says after that first mistake

Nikki
06:45am

The original iPhone alarm clock sound woke me up quickly but fully.

My morning routine is not some "aesthetic" routine. Its really simple and nothing special its literally a normal girls morning routine such as:

-06:45- wake up

-06:50- make bed

-06:52- shower/pick out cloths

-07:21- do makeup/skincare

-07:33- breakfast and brush teeth

-07:38- go to the bus stop

its not special but it works.

Im really excited to see Jess today. I dont know why though? I just have a feeling todays gonna be a good day.

I get on the bus and see Jess, i run up trying to not trip over strangers bags on the floor and sit besides her.

" Good morning " i say giving her a hug
"Morning" her eyes still glued to her phone screen.
a but if a silence goes on until i decide to break it.
" How did you sleep? "
" Fine "
Did i do something? Maybe she just doesn't want to talk. But really what was she doing on her phone thats so important she cant keep up  a conversation with me :/ I try look over her shoulder but she flips her phone the other way and gives me an annoyed face towards me. Shes just having that day again. i should let her be until shes fine again.

We get to school and i collect my stuff and get off the bus and say thank you to the driver.

Jess

I notice we got to school so i quickly get my stuff and catch onto Nikki.

Recently ive made this online friend called Emily, shes so nice, caring and absolutely gorgeous. And her style, humor and music taste is just amazing.
She also lives 45 minutes away from my house! I really hope we meet one day.

" Phone off Jess " My French teacher told me.
im lucky i didn't get it take off me though.

Ive thought about Emily all day now, i miss talking to her. She is homeschooled so she doesn't have a strict schedule  towards schooling. She does 2-3 subjects a day and and then she has the rest of the day to herself. I wish i was homeschooled. Everyone here is so boring- i mean, Nikki isn't really, but recently she hasn't been how she was when i met her, shes more needy and touchy. more then a human should be. It just gets too much if you know what i mean?

Nikki

I recently took it into my hands that if Jess isn't going to at least carry a conversation with me ill find someone who does. Harder than I thought.

I sit next to this guy in math and he's really funny whenever he talks to me. His name? I really have no idea but its something along the name of.. of- I think Lucas. He isn't bad looking either. but I definitely don't like like him but he's okay I guess.

I went back home with only jess on my mind. She was like a drug, I was addicted to being around her. But I wish someone would make this drug illegal so no more damage can be done. I really loved her. but she didn't. she loved someone else. someone I wasn't aware of. someone better.

someone I wish was me.

Jess

Nikki: Hey do you want to hang out on the weekends someday?

Jess: Busy sorry

Nikki: Oh. what are you doing

Fuck- I wasn't doing anything but talking to Emily. But I really don't want to leave her so ill have to make up a lie to not hang out.

Jess: Me and my dad are going out

Nikki: Oh sorry

I carried on talking to Emily and left Nikki on read.

Emily: I HAVE AMAZING NEWS <3

Jess: WHAT IS IT?

Emily: MY PARENTS ARE MOVING CLOSER TO YOUR AREA BECAUSE THEY FOUND OUT ABOUT ME TALKING TO YOU AND THEY THINK YOUR REALLY NICE AND SINCE IM NOT HAPPY HERE AND NEITHER ARE THEY, THEY'RE MOVING TO YOUR AREA THIS WEEKEND

Jess: OMG OMG OMG FINNALY WE GET TO MEET OMG

Im really excited for Emily to come here, but I don't want Nikki finding out, she doesn't take things like this very well. she's very protective and - jealous.

Nikki

I wouldn't say im jealous but I don't think Jess is going out with her dad on the weekend. She's been hiding something and I want to know what it is? Im supposed to be her best friend, we tell each other everything and have been for years. Maybe im just paranoid since I can't see myself without her in my life or me being replaced.

Ive been thinking about her all day, I had a science test today and I didn't even finish half of it since she's been on my mind. and yesterday I got a 12/45 on my math test bc I didn't finish it bc of her. and I got told off for daydreaming because she was on my mind. I just haven't had a good week because she has been on my mind all this time since the driest bus ride ever.

im involve with her. no one can tell me otherwise. I would do anything for her to smile at me. or wave. or even lock eyes with me. I want her to be in my life no matter what. I don't know what I woulld do without her in my life. she's probably the best and worst thing to ever happen. I don't think its a puppy love anymore, I think I truly want to have her in my life till I die. I probably would even die for her. she's so perfect. she's so gorgeous. she's so amazing. I love her green eyes. I love her nose and the freckles over it. I love her shoulder length wavy hair. I love her style. I love the way she makes me feel. I love how she's protected me over the period of time I've know her. I love how she never fails to put a smile on my face with a simple movement she does. I love they way she wipes tears off my face with her thumb. I love her. and only her. no one can tell me otherwise. I've never met someone like her. she's all I need and all I want. she's the only reason im something. she's probably the only reason im alive. she's my safe place, my home. my everything.

But am I hers.