I always wanted to see the moon and the stars above, and whenever I see it, I feel at peace like everything was so calm, in that way I feel your presence.
I love the moon as I LOVE YOU,yes you're my LUNA but I'm not you're VENUS,and will never be your one and only.
It's HURTS but that's the REALITY between us ,and what really hurt's me the most is to know that the person you've been wishing to be with, is inlove to someone else.
My name is BELLA and I have a bestfriend,his name is Aaron,siya ang lagi kung takbuhan pag may problema ako ,lahat na ata ng secrets ko alam na ni Aaron,at kung sino yung crush ko alam niya din,nagkakasundo pa rin kami kahit magkaiba kami ng gusto sa mga bagay-bagay.Then one day pinakilala ko siya sa sister ko,it's turn out na nagkamabutihan ang dalawa ng loob,at simula noon tampulan na sila ng tukso,naging madalang na kaming magkita at mag-usap well understand naman kasi he been courting my sister,but i don't know but i feel sad,ewan i can't understand myself either why i'm acting that way pero binalewala ko lang yun kasi what matters to me the most ay yung happiness nilang dalawa.
Dumaan ang mga araw,linngo,at buwan ganon lagi ang set up nila nasa mu2 stage pa ,then unexpected things happened,umalis si Aaron saktong kailangan nilang lumipat ng bahay because of family problems,ilang buwan wala kaming balita sa kanya ,sa kanila,even in socmed inactive or deactivated ang account niya,he even blocked us in fb,messenger and any platform na may koneksyon sa kanya as in totally no communication.Then after that my sisters loss interest in going into a relationships,di niya man sinasabi pero alam kong labis siyang nasaktan sa pagkawala ni Aaron,makikita ko sa mga mata niya,sa mga pag bugtong hininga niya,sa mga bitter thoughts about love and guys na paasa daw,i know deep inside na he is pertaining to my bestfriend at bilang ate nasasaktan akong makita siyang ganon,I even tried to contact Aaron para makapag usap sila,I want to ask why he left,why did that, so much questions to ask for but walang Aaron na nagparamdam.I cried at night the day na bago siya mawala Aaron told me na he really loves my sisters,i was happy indeed happy kahit parang may something kirot sa dibdib but finally he managed to utters those words.
But my bestfriend ask me a favor,kung pwede di na malaman ng sister ko na gusto niya ito,i don't know but i agreed to that because i want him to personally say that to my sister.
He really loves my sister but he don't to hurt her,so he said is better na ganon muna relationship nila.
That day na umalis siya gustong sabihin na napaka duwag niya,because he ran away to the girl he loves,he ran away to the person who loved him the most.I cried because I thought sa mga novels and wattpad ko lang masasaksihan ang ganitong sakit dulot ng pag-ibig but it could also happened in reality din pala.
Years passed and my sister was fully healed from the pain in the past,at ako naman eto,still hoping na bumalik siya,everytime I open my socmed hoping that one day mag chat siya or tumawag,pero wala pa rin,it feels like I am waiting for nothing.
Then one evening in november habang naglalakad ako pauwi galing trabaho,I saw the moon and the planet venus meet each other in the sky ,sabi sa balita ngayon daw yung "VENUS MEET THE MOON" yeah it's totally beautiful,napahinto ako saglit dahil sa gandang taglay nito,like i was mesmerized in a moment,then may biglang tumabi sa akin,i thought it just some stranger in the street na namangha din sa gandang taglay nito but i'm wrong,because the person besides me is the peron i've been longing for so long, the person i don't want to lost again in my sight, the person whom i inlove for very long time yeah my one and only bestfriend and nong nawala siya so much realization hits me,nong nawala siya doon ko lang naisip kung gaano siya kahalaga sa buhay ko, na kahit sino man makasama o makilala ko,but my hearts still wanting and longing for him.
"The moon and the planet venus looks so beautiful,isn't it,besprenn?"-sabi nito at ngumiti pero kita mo yung luhang namumuo sa mga mata nito.
Bigla akong napaluha, mixed emotions yung naramdaman ko that moment like I want to stop the time,kasi gusto kong mayakap siya at sampalin siya for leaving us like that,but that smile of him,makes my heart fluttered any moment,kaya ang tanging nagawa ko lang ay umiyak habang yakap yakap siya.
"Sorry,sorry if i left without even saying goodbye,sorry but i think i don't deserved your her love."-that moment na sinabi niya yun,bigla nalang akong napahagulhol,kasi the moment na sinabi niya yun i know that he still loves her and no can ever replaced her in his heart.
Ang tanga ko sa part na umasa akong balang araw mamahalin niya din ako.
Ang tanga ko a part na umasa akong balang araw mamahalin niya ako more than he loves her but the saddest part is NOT GONNA HAPPENED NOT EVER IN HIS ENTIRE LIFE NA papalitan niya sa puso ang taong sobra niyang minahal.
That moment he said he really loves her,is the moment i decided to let go of this feeling,maybe loving him is impossible,no loving me back is totaly impossible.
HE is my luna my moon but i will never be her venus and maybe were not destined in the end.
