It's been maybe a week since I met Sam and Dean Winchester and I still haven't stopped drinking. I drink maybe 5 or more beers a day and I chug every single one of them.
I have nothing but Sam and Dean and even then I'm stuck in a hotel while there doing whatever they do and once I see the Impala show up I hide all the bottles I chug and all the cigarettes I smoke. Every single day.
Even they think I'm just a regular sweet innocent girl that only drinks one a day or half a bottle and dresses like a hoe but really I'm nothing like that
All I ever ask is for someone to ask me if I'm ok but every night I slowly get better as I spend time with Sam and Dean, they really do fix my broken messed up life and I'm so so glad I have them now.
+*+*+*+*+* Present day +*+*+*+*+*
I wake up to the sun in my eyes and I'm wearing my Light-ish Green, Short sleeved crop top with Dark Ivy Green short, shorts.
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{picture for reference also that's her body type as well but her thighs and butt are a little bigger}
I'm laying Star shaped on my stomach in a hotel room. I lift my head to look around and I see Dean at the foot of the bed and my leg is on top of him.
I giggle a little and whisper "Sorry Dean" as I get up and lightly tap his back, waking him up a little.
"It's ok Cyna (Sign-uh)" Dean says in a whisper, rubbing his eyes. He sits up on the bed and looks really sleepy.
I walk to the kitchen and start making sandwiches, with all we have and I give him one and walk over to Sam and shake him softly so he wakes up.
"Sorry for waking you dean" I chuckle
"It's fine Cyna we needed to wake up anyways" He gets up and pays me one the shoulder
"Sammy wake up" I talk low and soft
"Mmm" he mumbles and turns
I look at dean as if it was his cue to yell his name. But I sure was not ready for how loud he said it.
"SAMMMYYY" he yells in his deep graspy voice
I stare at him with a "what the hell" face and wide eyes when I realize I have my hands to my ears and Sam as fallen of the bed.
I start laughing really hard, causing Sam to give me a straight face and I laughed even harder.
"Oh dean I think we are going to be really good friends" I walk by dean and pat him on the chest
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I over hear them talking about a dead person they mentioned the name 'Jane Nesrin'.
I sit down with them and stare at them
"What the hell is my mothers name doing in your mouth?!" I say quite loudly
"That's your mom?" They say in sync
"Yes why are you talking about her" I snatch the paper they where holding and looked at it
My mom. Dead, bloody deep cut through her neck and blood everywhere. I feel tears pricking are my eyes and I quickly got up and went to the kitchen. Going through the fridge and found a half drunken baddie of beer and quickly sat down in the floor. I start crying but I quickly wiped the tears.
Chugging the beer then I hear foot steps and I look up. Dean I honestly thought it was going to be Sam but no it's Dean.
Dean looked at me with awe in his eyes and he crouched down in front of me and slowly took the beer from my lips.
He sat down next to me and just stayed quiet. I'm guessing he didn't really know how to talk about feeling and they make him all ehh because all he did was..
Rapped his arm around me and scooted me closer to him and I laid between his legs hugging him. He had his arms tight around me while I cried in his shirt. He even rubbed my back and let me cry
He makes me feel safe, he's almost like a brother to me. Protecting me and helping me when I'm sad or drunk, he made me feel really safe and that's what I love about Dean.
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We sat there until I feel asleep and he picked me up and laid me on the bed. He laid next to me but slightly sitting up so it wasn't weird.
We both feel asleep and I ended up laying next to him and he put his arm around me.
I didn't feel love. Like romantic love I felt love as if he will always protect me and he's more of a brother to me and I think he knows that.
(This is to see how Cynara and Deans Relationship is and how she loves him but not romantically)
