The thought of being responsible for my siblings and mother's well being makes me want to cry. I want my mom and her boyfriend to fix their problems and be a happy couple. I don't want to help anymore. I'm so sorry for them, but all of this is too much for my head. It's four kids that we're talking about! I don't want to be a parent to my siblings anymore. It makes me want to cry so much because this is too much stress for me. I am only babysitting them this month for our vacation in December to Georgia, and that is it. If my mom can't get help with the siblings, I'll only help her financially if possible, but that is all. I don't want any more problems. I'm so sick of family problems. There's always been something going on in the family ever since I was born. My mom is fighting with my dad, Damian's biological father, and her current boyfriend of 5 years. I'm so sick of dealing with them. I'm leaving it all up to my mom. I've dealt with our family problems for too long, and I've dealt with so many mental problems of my own. I'm actually crying right now because I am so done with all of the family problems. I will no longer be involved in any of my mother's problems. I want peace for once in my life away from family trouble. If it doesn't stop, I will be at high risk of doing something to myself that will take me out of this world. I want to Rest In Peace already from all of this family trouble.
- November 10, 2021
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Dance Through Trauma
NonfiksiA diary of an autistic young adult who suffers from PTSD as a result of school bullying. Read about my deep inner thoughts from my conscious and subconscious, and how I am dealing with PTSD as an autistic person. (Book will be finished in a few year...
