My Boyfriend and The Doctor

On Our Way

Sam holds my hand and walks me to his car. He stops to open the door for me, then puts his backpack in the trunk. I'm usually the one that drives when we're together, so being in the passenger seat feels weird. 

Sam comes back up to the drivers seat, and puts a random address in his phone. I still have no clue where we're going. He hands me my water bottle that has been refilled. "Can you go ahead and have this finished for me by the time we get there?" Sam asks. "It'll be about 20 minutes."

"Yes sir," I reply. I grab the bottle and start to sip as we start driving. I wish I could remember where that sex store is. But I swear it was at least a half an hour away, so that can't be where we're going. I want to ask questions, but I know I'm not supposed to speak without being spoken to. I need a little break from sub space to think. 

"So Jess," Sam begins. "How ya feelin' so far?"

"Horny. Absolutely wet and a little shaky, I'm a mess. And you've totally got me nervous. Excited too though."

"Aww babe. Don't be nervous! I know not knowing is your least favorite thing. But I promise, you will enjoy this. Do you want to go over your safe words with me?" 

I smile. "Sure. Red means full stop, yellow means slow down or take a break."

"That's right babygirl! And what about your attitude, how are we going to behave today."

"Umm, not speak unless spoken to. Not being a brat. Listen to you. Be on my best slut behavior. No covering up. Uhhh I think that's it."

"You basically got it. I also really REALLY want you to try to let yourself enjoy today and go into your sub space. I know sometimes you like to psych yourself out, but I promise that you're in a safe situation. And if I feel like something is wrong, I'll make sure it stops. Or if you say Red, we stop and we leave. Can you try to do that for me?"

My nervousness spikes. We've been together for long enough that he knows exactly what pushes my buttons. But also, giving into my sub mindset and going through the uncomfortableness is something I've wanted to work on for a while now. Today sounds like it's going to test that, with whatever we're doing. "Yes sir. I will try my best. Thank you for being there with me, for whatever this is." 

"Of course babygirl! And thank you for trying." We sit and listen to music for a bit, and I'm super jittery. I have so many questions bouncing around in my head, but I know not to ask them. Also, I have no idea where we are, where the heck are we going?

Sam puts his hand on my inner thigh as we get closer. He has the GPS turned away from me, but I know we have to be getting close. 

"In 1 mile, the destination is on your left" I hear Siri say. I watch the road as we turn into the parking lot of a... medical facility? Or something? It's like an independent doctors office. I've never felt so much nervousness and excitement. Sam parks and looks over at me. My eyes are wide. I also notice there are no cars in the parking lot. It's Saturday, shouldn't somewhere like this be closed? 

"How's that water babe?" I look down, I totally forgot to drink it. "Better get to chugging." I start to sip as Sam goes to the trunk to get the backpack. It goes down pretty quickly, and Sam opens up the passenger side door. "What a good girl! Ready to go?"

"Uhhhh." I think about what he said about giving in to the uneasiness. Medfet is something that I love, but also doctors kinda scare me in real life and he knows I have some hard limits with it. I really wish we would've talked about this, I don't feel like this is kinky at all to randomly schedule a doctors appointment for me. "I really wish we would've talked about this, I don't have my insurance card and I-"

"It's not what you're thinking, I wouldn't do that. Well, maybe, you do need to go. But this isn't a real checkup, okay?" He smiles wide. "Trust me." I am incredibly nervous. But intrigued too. "Want to go in? You know we can stop any time."

I look around the empty parking lot. Half of me wants to say no. But maybe this is my one opportunity to do something real with medfet besides Sam's "sexy checkups". I sigh. "Sure, let's go." Sam looks so relieved, but a little nervous too. "Thank you Jess. I love you. I promise we'll have fun." He gives me a kiss on the forehead, and suddenly we're on our way inside.