The day you left, was the day everything went down-RanbooxOC

Kapitel 13- ...or where you are

Ranboo pov(ich habs angeteaserd):

"do you believe me now, what a witch she is" Tiffany just didnt shut up about.

to be honest i dont really know who i did wrong, Lillith or her.

everyone gets angry and i would never have guessed that lillith can be so emotional bu the last week has definitly proved me wrong.

" her me out treat me like an option and i will show you how many I got" Tiffany said out of the blue.

I was honestlz really shocked, not going to believe what she just told me.
I thought zou liked me, I thoght someone could rellz like me, not like that was realistic but still.

"Huh?" I asked ,not really getting her point.

"You want me,not her.
There are thousend girls like Lillith, she is replacable , unworthy.
But I am something special, someone you dont just trow away" she hissed at me, nothing left from the sweetgirl I meet days ago.

Not quiet realising what I did I nodded.

"Oh I am happy we both agreee on that", she suddenly smiled again, like nothing happened.

"Ehhhmm any ways i am doing a little stream for now."
i quickly wanted to get out of this, hopefully Lillith would be available later that night, we needed to talk.

"Just call me if you need a hot girl by yourside ,mister famous" she giggled.

Still I wasnt sure how but i managed to mess up ,
only a week after meeting again,
maybe we shouldn have meet, ever .

How easy it would have been.
Maybe we should have meet anothertime , somewhere else.
The time was off, the place was wrong.

But honestly we both got forced into beeing friends but that was ok because I learned to love her....
as a friend of course...
platonicly...
No feelings at all.

And I wouldnt have wanted it to go another way,
at least we were happy.
Even if that is over, I finally ruined it,
congratulation Ranboo wow, you are one of a kind.

Sitting here , where we sat days ago felt wrong,
she should be here with me not somewhere else, but it felt like it was enternyties ago.

I closed my eyes smiling to myself,
thinking how her smile lit up the room and you got warm immediantly when you just thought about the way she laughed.

She is the kind of person, you wonder thez are single,
she was ,wasnt she?

Either way just the kind of person you admire and you wonder why they would even talk to you.

The moment my mum told me someone was going to visit us I wasnt shocked.
She gets visited all day.

But as I saw Lilith years later,
standing there my blood ran cold,
took me back to the day I stopped answering her.
The day she fell through the cracks of my hands.

In this moment I questioned how I ever let her go, wanted to give her a hug and say that i were sorry, but were I?

Like when we were kids, when we were best friends.

Like we used to play in the flowerfield not far away from our preeschool and I gave her some flower arrangements, she alwazs gave me that wonderful smile after.

And one day she taught me how to make a flower crown or tried to teach me german words but I terrebly failed to speak them and she just sat there laughing at me.

But she smiled so it was fine with me.

I always wondered if I would get that kind of connection to anyone again, and supprisingly I got something like it again.

With TUBBO.

It wasnt completely the same, but I took it just for my memories slowly fading.

With him I woulndt mess up,
not again, i would do it better, leaving Lilith behind.

Yeas leaving ,this behind.

But before that she should have a fair chance to explain herself, maybe it wasnt completely gone.

I just need a distraction right now, a stream was promised after all...

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After stream...

I streamed till late , getting distracted by every noice Lillith could make by comming inside.

But it never was her.

I totally zoned out a couple times, everything seemed to remind me of her.

I was dissapointet, in myself , I had hurt her , bad, ad its over.
I just hope she is ok,
she better not be with that Luka guy now, he looks at her way to much for my taste.

Not to sound jealous or something, coulnt be me, uh-uh.

just call it protective over an ex friend, kinda,sorta,what were we?

So he decision was final, I opened discord.

It was late where he lived but he was in a call with me minutes ago so he should be awake.

I voice called tubbo he answered immediatly.

"You said I shoud visit you some time, how about soon, best in a couple days"
I refered to an offer he gave me months ago...

after an longer discusion our parents agreed,tomorrow it will get better, a new step in leaving past behind

[Distance would help he thought, distracting would solve the problems he thought,he thought wrong.
Little does he know he only was gonna make it worse]
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A/N hellu people hows life ?
der grund warum ich heute update is das ich heute Geburtstag habe und kinda zeit hatte :) so here you go

Ganz auf english weil ich meiner lieben Freundin gerne helfe englisch zu lernen :)

ich hab zurzeit mental ein paar probleme, was die Uploads verzögern könnte sorry im vorraus.

wenn ihr wollt wünscht i0a0banana nachträlich alles gute zum geburtstag :)
und wenn wir dabei sind auch Milliii213nachträglich happy birthday (yes I know I am late,sry)

was denkt ihr folgt?

Habt ihr noch wünsche was für Szenarien ich einbauen sollte?
Mal sehen was ich dann daraus mache

Y'all remember to eat,sleep and drink enough.

Tolle Adventskalender nee?

Stay healthy bye :D

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