I've gone and wrecked it all! Literally , he has gone , left me, I'm fucked. I loved him ,well I still do but what's the point in trying any more. I love you is 8 letters but so is bullshit. Was he lying to me the whole time ? Come on who would love me ? I'm worthless ,ugly and well just fucked up. I don't blame myself for telling him goodbye I was doing the right thing to protect him but to him he thinks its because I don't love him anymore , that I like someone else but I don't I love him. People say you've got to let your love one go so I guess I've done right. The days keep getting harder , people sending me photos of him , laughing at me calling me pathetic they have no clue how much I hate myself already . they don't know what happens when am alone in a dark room. With nothing but pain, it feels like my hearts been ripped out and I've been left to bleed and to die. Maybe this world would be better with out me init he wouldn't miss me no one would so I should do the right thing I cant even look at myself in the mirror no more because he pops up in MY mind again. So I'm guessing this is goodbye✋.
1 pill, 2 pill, 3 pill, 4
Tell MY friends and family that I love them
5 pill, 6 pill, 7 pill , 8
It don't matter how many I take this pain won't go
9 pill, 10 pill , 11.......
* blackout*
"Scarlet, scarlet can you hear me?"
I hear heavy talking in the background but I can't see anything , it's all a blur.
I'm trying to open my eyes but I can't it's impossible. God scarlet wake up !!
" scarlet it's Lydia you've got to wake up "
Lydia ??? Lydia I'm trying but I can't
That's all what keeps going through my head.
Heavy foot steps begin to come closer and closer towards my bed. Who is it ?
"I'm sorry to have to break this to you mrs bee bit if scarlet doesn't wake up in the next week we are going to have to take her of life support "
Wait... What how long has it been???
Scarlet wake up!!!!!!
Suddenly I start to see shadows but it's still a blur
" scarlet!!!!?? Doctor help she's awake !!"
To my surprise I never thought I would see him standing there crying
" what- tttt are you doing here? "
I struggle to get my words out but the did
"Scarlet I had to see you I love you and I can't face losing you just so happy your awake" he voice is still as sweet as ever but he still cheated
"Wait what you cheated remember with Chloe so why you saying that?"
To be continued
