Whipped Culture

Umme

You texted me first
our first memory together
I was a nervous mess
putting up a cool front

you were kinda funny
the cute type of it
introducing yourself while soft giggles escaped from me

and we talked for the longest time yet
my first online friend

u introduced me to your other friend
and I felt sceptical
one friend at a time felt enough then
you were enough

days turned into weeks
knowing each other was as simple as learning the basics of life

untill one day I showed myself to u
it felt too early to u
I shared the vulnerable part of myself to a stranger, u had thought

regardless you were there for me
like you would always be in the future

And so u grew less and less defensive (?)
trusting me mostly
yet still doubting if we would be forever

but I was always the confident one in between us
cuz I was sure I felt something
comfortable, peaceful with u

and a year passed in a blur
we were still strong
stronger than ever
with ups and downs the life brings

I had my problems which always felt nothing compared to yours
you mostly understood and comforted me onse
I tried my best but could never return the favor

maybe that's why it is the way it is now
we both have given up I guess
maybe feeling that same comfort in simple chats but knowing the peaceful bubble of ours was never that strong to withstand the reality of live

one day we'll meet
one day we'll be happy
one day we'll be free

one day you'll be happy
one day you'll be free

I pray as I cry
for the companion, for my happy pill
that I lost