2gether AU: Stay, be Still

Chapter 19: Deep Breaths

Tine's POV

Feeling Sarawat in my arms again was a blessing and a nightmare simultaneously.

It was a blessing because I had missed him so badly, it felt like home again as I nuzzled into his neck, inhaling his manly scent greedily.

Sarawat, I miss you so damn much.

It was a nightmare because it brought all the bad memories back to me, but I knew it was the demon all along.

You wouldn't leave me alone, right?

Even with Sarawat in my arms, I still couldn't quite wrap my head around what was happening.

A small part of me crumbled when Sarawat asked if he was kissing me till I dropped in my dreams.

I wish you were, but you weren't.

And the next second, before I realised, I was already a wreck, breaking down in Sarawat's arms.

All the bricks I've laid toppled into chaos as I recalled the nightmare that came back at me over and over again.

And I was left bare and naked with my raw emotions with Sarawat.

I couldn't really process my thoughts logically, I felt like I was just blabbering incoherent thoughts.

Yet, somehow, Sarawat managed to understand those words perfectly.

"No no, Tine, it was just a nightmare. You had done nothing wrong, and I'll never ever leave you even when you've done something wrong."

Promise?

Sarawat was everywhere, I could feel him everywhere.

The solid plank of heat underneath me, his soft lips running against my cheeks, kissing away the fresh tears forming, his calloused fingers curling against the hair at my back, tugging against my scalp gently.

Yet, I was still afraid that he would just slip away between my fingers.

I could feel my breaths accelerating at those thoughts.

"Tine, I'm still here."

It was a mere whisper, but I knew Sarawat meant every word he let out as the rhythmic heartbeat continued to thump soothingly.

"Tine, why is that even when in our insecurity, we would still put each other before ourselves?"

"Because I love you so much."

Judging from my grumbling stomach, it was definitely time to eat, but I didn't want to let go of my Wat although our bodies were already protesting.

At least, I knew Sarawat needed food, I didn't know if he already had his dinner yesterday.

And his one-man birthday party in the living room.

We untangled our limbs unwillingly as Sarawat ordered food from his phone.

Oh, I wish, we could stay in bed for a lifetime.

"Wat, can I wear one of your hoodies?"

Even the tiniest thing would haunt me to my core. I was desperate to have myself covered in Wat's scent.

"Tine, you don't usually ask me about such trivial things. What's with the question today?"

I leaned into his palms longingly as he ruffled my hair.

"I didn't know if that was okay."

Deep down, I knew Sarawat would've given in to all my requests, but I really needed the reassurance.