Being a Bride in India !

I'm still fighting to overcome the inferior complexity I developed from my childhood PTSD.
But the rejection I face each day as a young female is never going to leave me to overcome my complexity and it's only going to leave me with PTSD that no therapy can cure.
Thought, blessed on is someone who has a roof over their head, food on their plate, cloth to cover their skin, one qualification that gives them job and importantly a family to love them.
Now as a grown-up I realised it's not the roof that matters anymore it's the size and number of the houses that matters,
it's not the food that matters anymore it's the amount of money my bank account has matters,
it's not the cloth I wear that matters anymore it's the amount of jewel that I gonna use to cover myself that matters,
it's not the one degree I hold that matters anymore it's the multiple degrees that matters and it's not the family that matters anymore it's the family's status and wealth that matters.
Felt sorry for women who were tortured in the name of dowry but was never scared about it, until today !
Until today where I was left in the same place like them.
Isn't people marry each other to love and to have a family for themselves ?
Isn't, marriage is a Holy sacrament that God has made ?.
I think that doesn't matter anymore.
With advancement in science, people have become materialistic where they use marriage as a weapon to load them with more materials.