16.3.2011
Dear You,
This may sound completely gayish but I couldn't care less now.
You're going to leave. You're going to leave us, your home, your friends, you're going to leave your old everything and go to your new. I already miss you although you are close by, but the fact that I'll never get to see you again it just feels like someone is stabbing me over and over. I don’t want you to go, no one does. You really came and put your mark on us. How many people ever leave and a whole city misses them? How many people have dozens and dozens of people crying for them when they hadn't even left yet? Not many, I guarantee you that. I don't have many memories with you but all the ones that I do, are all my treasured ones. Not a single memory that I have of you is average. They're all amazingly awesome. For the past 2 years, the 2 years that I knew you were worth everything. You're probably the only friend that I have that there isn't a single thing that I regret. This may sound messed up in every way possible but it's the truth. You leaving feels like nothing is going to be right, that things are only going to get worse. MUCH WORSE!!
You're honestly the only "real" friend I have, and you know how all the rest are fake in one way or another and filled with bullpoop. The memories I have with you may seem stupid and nothing compared to the rest of your memories, but honestly, most of my firsts I've done them with you. My first time hiking, taking my first puff, loosening up and actually having fun. It's all been done with you. It may seem stupid how I'm writing all this now and kind of pathetic but I don't care.
I'm not afraid that you'll forget me and everything. I'm scared that I won't even be in your memories anymore, not even as an after-thought, that I won't have any significance in your memories what so ever. I truly wished that I risked more and hung out with you more. I know it's stupid that I'm thinking that but I know that once you leave we won't talk. If we do, it'll be on a rare basis. Probably for weeks or months you'll be starting a new life there and why bother with your old one.
First time in my life I ever cry/miss someone this much and it so happens to be you =D. It's probably childish to say that I really really don't want you to leave, cause maybe I won't be able to stand not having anyone to walk around the school with =P
I'm writing this for you to read after you've left, so I won't have to face you and break-down majorly. I've done everything that mattered in my life once, and all those times were with you. It wasn't much but it was all worth it.
You've taught me things that no one else could've taught me. You've told me stuff that mattered to me and I'd treasure them in my heart forever and after, no matter how "stupid" they seemed.
If things go as planned, you'll probably read this AFTER you've left and I wish you to know that I'll really miss you and no other person could take your place in my heart as my living alter ego </3 I'll miss you, I AM missing you….and your family </3
P.S Things did go much worse after you left, and it was only the beginning.
