"So how'd it go?" Ali asked me as she got in the passengers seat of my car. She was committed to getting shotgun so she got out of class 10 minutes early.
"How did what go?" I replied with my brows furrowed.
"Don't act like you weren't on a date with Nick," Ali said wiggling her eyebrows.
"I actually have taste you'll never catch me simping for him, he just took me for lunch because he felt bad for me," I said making it clear it meant nothing.
"Sure whatever you say," Ali said smirking at me.
"The real question here is what's up with you and Alex you seem to day dream butterflies and shit rainbows when you see him," I said smirking.
"Hey, care to explain where you have been?" Ry asked in a serious tone as he got in the back seat.
"Nick took her on a date," Ali said confidently.
"Girl- if you don't shut your lying mouth," I said as a rolled my eyes at her.
"Nick took me out to eat but it wasn't a date, he just felt bad because I never eat," I said as I turned to face Ry.
"So a date?" he said, his eyes blazing with fury. "Did he force you into it?"
"No, he gave me an opportunity to get free food and I couldn't turn it down," I replied.
"Ok, just be careful who you trust, you can't just go into someone's car because they offered you food then not respond to texts," Ry said as if he was talking to a toddler.
"I know."
"Wait did you say you never eat?," Ali asked in a low tone.
Shit. Ali and Ry don't know I haven't been eating, or that I had been sleeping in my car on some nights. I just told them I ate the school cafeteria food by choice. I didn't want anyone to know the real situation, especially them. I know they'd start helping me in everyway possible and that's what I don't want. I don't want or need anyone's pity, I hate feeling helpless or burdensome to people that's why I smile through it all. So that no one feels like I'm their responsibility.
"El is everything ok," Ry asked with genuine concern in his voice.
"Yes definitely," I said flashing the biggest smile I could master.
"You know you can tell us anything right?" Ali said softly.
"I know. I promise I'm fine," I reassured.
I smiled at them gayly but little did they know I was dying on the inside. Before the conversation went further I drove off and thankfully Ry changed the subject.
"Alissa, I know you're head over hills for Alex but please don't do anything you'll regret. Don't even deny your feelings, its clear as day already," Ry said firmly.
"I'm not a child Ry, I know you care for us but sometimes you do too much," Ali said.
"Maybe 'I do too much' because I know what the world can be like," Ry said clearly getting ticked off.
"What fucking real world Ry, maybe you're just too scared to experience things," Ali snapped back.
"Or maybe I just care for my friends and don't want them to go through what my sister went through."
With those words everyone fell silent. Things got too real too fast. We didn't even know Ry had a sister. Why didn't he ever bring her up? I could feel the tension between all of us, it felt like we all kept secrets from each other and I didn't like that feeling. We were silent the whole way home until I said something.
"Ry... what happened to your sister," I asked in a low tone.
"I'd prefer not talking about that right now," was his response.
I looked at him in the rear view mirror and he seemed distant and torn apart. I decided to not push the conversation further and just nodded.
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I sat in bed gazing out the window thinking about all that had happened.
A million thoughts flooded my mind and I didn't seem to have an answer for any of them. I was in a world of my own reflecting on everything.
Why was Nick so nice all of a sudden? Or was that him just showing pity. Did Ry actually have a sister? And most importantly why did he never bring her up.
I was pulled out of my thoughts by yelling and glass shattering. This was nothing out of the ordinary so I just locked my room and hugged my knees, a position that always comforted me ever since I was a child. I never did like living in this house, I only stayed for my dad. After my brother ran away at 16 he was torn, he held onto me like I was his last reason to stay alive. On nights when I wasn't at home he thought I was as Ali's or Ry's because that's where I told him I was.
Eventually I fell asleep. You'd be surprised how peacefully I sleep in the midst of chaos. Chaos is where I grew up anyways so I got used to it. I couldn't exactly run to extended family for shelter. Considering we were labelled as the family of violence they assumed my cousins would get wrongly influenced by me as the daughter of the thug aunt.
I was woken up at 3a.m by a bloodcurdling scream and furniture banging. I ran down stairs and holy shit.
My dad had blood gushing out of him and his whole body was drenched. I looked over and saw my mom swinging at him again and he helplessly laid on the floor. I knew I had to call for help but I couldn't just stand back and watch my dad suffer, he was the only parent I had. I ran over to my 'mother' and yanked the beer bottle out of her hand, she turned to me with red eyes and I knew it was over for me.
"You bitch, you're the reason for all of this. You are such a disappointment I couldn't bear looking at you. YOU DISGUT ME! You are the whole reason I even do drugs you burdensome piece of shit," my 'mom' spat out these words.
Usually I'd walk away and cry myself to sleep but this time was different. I felt something burning inside of me. All the trauma she had caused me to have, all the times my dad stayed silent. The time my brother fled because of her. I felt like it was getting hot but at the same time I was shaking feeling cold. I couldn't hold it in anymore so I let it all out.
"You ignorant bitch," I said looking her dead in the eyes. "You're the reason for dad's suffering and you are the reason my brother ran. I see perfectly well why he left, the only reason I'm sticking around is dad. Do you realize how terrible of a person you are? Where were you throughout my childhood, that's right you were too busy prioritizing drugs. When have you ever told me you loved me ?" I said as my vision got clouded and I felt a sharp pain on my chest. "You have no fucking right to judge me because you yourself have no experience what so ever on even changing a freaking diaper, at least dad actually tried and I'm glad I have at least one parent. You might have been able to pull your bull shit with everyone else but don't fucking cross me."
I felt good, like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. With that I called 911 and went over to comfort my dad. Soon enough sirens were heard
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Hey besties
This chapter intensified a lot, but for anyone going through domestic violence or any other shitty thing. I'd like you to know you are strong and I know it may not seem like it but things will get better.
Anyways I hope you're all doing well and you enjoyed this chapter.
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