Underneath

Emily

"Another day at school" I complained to myself...Since I could remember I have always been a person that had a lot to say about the world and how things are done or said,but I have never had the courage to say it infront or to people,the thought of speaking to people scared me and I never understood why...my childhood is mostly a blur,all I know is that my mother wasn't really there and my father only cares about money and my marriage,I don't have siblings so I guess people could say I'm the favorite child,WITHCH I'M NOT!! since my mom went out of the picture,my dad  wasn't really there for me,he's more of a work and money type of guy then a parent,I mean I can't blame the guy,he's had some tuff times.

At the age of 16 my dad told me to get married at the age of 18,and that he already  had a brilliant man in mind,a man with money,a man with no fear,a man with POWER! Those where the only words I herd and he hasn't said anything since that day,I mean I'm not complaining...but I have been taking care of myself since I was little and there's no way that I would let a man do the job of caring,loving,protecting and have power over me,I am already doing great by myself...

I turn 18 in a few days and I'm  scared to hear about the man I will be marying soon...my dad hasn't been home for a few days,and I hope it stays that way for a little longer,I whant to go out clubbing with my best friend Kiara,Kiara has been there for me ever since I could remember,we do every thing together,she's a kind,sweet,funny and a grumpy person,she's just like me,I might be a little more selfish,richer,meaner then her,but nobody's perfect, right?

I have never been in a relationship,so I guess you can say that I am going to be a new bee wife in her first relationship.

A few days have past and it's time for me to go out and rock my 18th birthday...but I never knew that I would end up regretting  and not regretting it at the same time...