Loves Me So, Loves Me Not

Still stuck in the past?

NO NEW MESSAGE
The message flashed on her screen. She refreshed, but still, no new message.

"Why am I waiting for his message? Who is he? Nothing." She asked herself and then even answered the question. She tossed the phone in air and it landed on her bed. She was disappointed, it was evident. She wanted to scream, but kept on telling herself that he is just another guy. There was nothing special with him.

'Just another jerk' she told herself.

'You know he isn't just another jerk. You know he is different', screamed her subconscious. Veronica was always in constant debate with her subconscious. Not only for a guy, but even when it came to wearing dress. Debate was always going on.

She shook away the thought and occupied herself with schoolwork.

Then suddenly her phone ringed. She ran from her seat, dashed towards the bed where she had tossed her phone. She picked up the phone. 'Elena' flashed on the screen. She hates to admit it but she was disappointed, though it was her best friend calling. After all she was expecting a call or message from him!

She punched herself mentally for thinking about him.

"Hello?" Elena said.

"Hi" Veronica said, trying her best to sound alright.

"You okay?" Elena enquired.

"Yeah. I am fine. You tell." Veronica composed herself. 'She mustn't know I was thinking about him. She will kill me' she thought.

"You are still waiting for his message, right?" Said Elena.

There was a pause. Elena knew Veronica too well. She knows when she was angry, happy, stressed....everything. She knew everything. And same was the case when it came to Veronica knowing her. They were really good friends.

"Veronica, listen. I don't hate him....but it's just that he talks to you for a while and then leaves you. He is just so moody. And if really want to talk to him, then just message him. What's the big deal?" Elena said

"I am never going to message him. I don't want to sound like I am desperate to talk to him. And I am not even desperate. I don't care about him. If he wants to talk, he will message or call. If he doesn't he won't. I don't wanna talk to him. Hey is not worth my attention. I am Veronica. I am not desperate for any guy." Veronica said and puffed up her chest.

"Okay. As you say. Listen I have to tell you something" Elena said.

"Yeah. Tell me. I am listening." Veronica said.

"I guess...ummm....I guess.....I should talk to Elliot." Elena said taking a lot of pauses. She was hesitant. She always refrained from taking his name. In fact she refrained herself from talking about him. Elliot was Elena's past. A past that she never talks about, a past that she never thinks about, a past that she wishes had never happened.

"Are you sure?" Veronica asked, concerned.

"I guess." Elena.

"But what are you gonna talk about? Your past and stuff?" Veronica.

"I honestly don't know. I have been thinking a lot about him lately. Everything is coming back like flashbacks. I just wanna confirm if he ever liked me. Just this." Elena said.

"But why Elena? Why are you going to him after three fucking years? Why? He is a jerk, a playboy, everyone knows it, says it. You are well aware of this. Then why do want to live the whole pain situation again? He is a jerk and if you are trying to go back to him, then you are a complete bitch!" Veronica said bluntly. Anger was evident in her tone. She hated Elliot, especially after what he had done with Elena. She wanted to bury him alive.

"Two things. First, he is jot a jerk. Second, I don't have feelings for him now. I have moved on." Elena said, slowly...as if she was not sure.

" 'not a jerk'?" Veronica said trying to mimic Elena's tone.

"He cheated on you, got into a relationship with your then best friend and tried to make you jealous and after all this you say that he is not a jerk?" Veronica said with irritation. She hated this side of Elena. Elena was a strong girl. She had dignity and respect. She was very strong....but with Elliot, the case wasn't same. She was somewhat....vulnerable. It seemed like, if she could control the whole situation, she would run back to him. Although she said that she had moved on, but the ones who knew about her relationship with Elliot knew that she was stuck on him and in fact she had not moved on from him.

"I know him. I know the real him." Elena said.

"Yeah. Sure. Whatever." Veronica said.

"Look, I don't like him. It's just, I know that he is not a jerk at heart" Elena assured Veronica.

Veronica wanted to jump off her balcony. She hated this conversation. She hated seeing Elena like this. She wanted this to end forever.

"Elena, do what you want to do. Just don't go through all that pain all over again, okay? Please. I hate seeing you like that." Veronica said.

"I won't Veronica. Thanks." Elena said.

"Okay. Now I gotta go. Talk to you later. Bye. Love you."

Veronica said.

"Bye. Love you." Elena said.

Call ended.