Walk

PROLOGUE

W A L K

Life is like a walk,
You may stumble and fall,
But to remain standing,
Despite all of your failures,
Is something that you could smile for.

Now,learn to start walking alone.

-Reign Unsteppie Nani Q. Torrential

Binaliktad ko ang sulat na ito at nabasa ko ang detalyadong petsa sa likod.
February 2,2020

Apat na taon na pala ang nakakalipas,simula ng isinulat ko ang letter na'to para sa sarili ko, and I know that literally I wrote this letter to have the courage to face my problems that I was facing that time, funny but I promise to myself that time that no matter what happen, I will still keep on moving despite all of the things that everybody is thingking on me. And gladly I did. Because right now I could say that I am a better person, that everybody thinks I can't have, well, except for those people who are still with me despite of everything that I've been through.

People don't know my pain because they weren't in my shoes.But I'm glad that I believe in him,the almighty God that he will not let me be in the ground forever, he help me by giving me those person who motivated me to keep on going.

That same day where in I planned to stop everything,and end anything God gave me a miracle.And I'm not sorry for keeping it as a secret for them.My sister,and friends are the only one who knows it.And I won't let the heavens cross our path again.I would make sure that we would not cross path again because he doesn't deserve to know this miracle.Call me selfish but he doesn't deserve to know it.I won't let him...

"Ma,why are you crying out there?",nabalik ako sa reyalidad ng maramdamam ko ang mahihinang tapik ng mga kamay ng aking anak sa aking pisngi. Dito ko palang namalayang umiiyak pala ako.

Shit ba't ako umiiyak,tapos na yun. Nakamove on na'ko.

Putangina nya hindi nya deserve ang luha ko.

Agad kong pinunasan ang mga luha ko at tiningala ang aking anak na nakapatong sa kama habang nakaupo ako sa sahig.

"No baby,mama is not crying napuwing lang ako",i reasoned out syaka dali daling ibinalik lahat ang mga gamit na hinalungkat ko sa kahon.

Ibinalik ko ito sa ilalim ng kama ang mga kahon,pinagpagan ko din ang aking short na nagkaalikabok dahil sa pag upo ko sa papag.Umupo ako sa kama at binuhat sya para iupo sa aking mga hita.

"Skrillex Kyser Ysaac Torrential,what it is this time?hmm?",pinugpog ko sya ng halik habang nakayakap naman ang mga kamay nya sa aking bewang.Alam ko kasing meron na naman itong gusto at dinadaan ako sa lambing.

"Ma, I just want to ask if i can go with nangnang",he is pertaining to my girl bestfriend which is her ninang na si Cassy.He calls her nangnang kasi ewan ko ba sa batang yan bulol kasi nung una kaya nasanay na siguro na ganyan ang tawag sa ninang niya which is I find really cute.