Hi , I'm Eirene. A 17 year old girl with a normal life . So normal that most of the time I am living in my fantasies . Fantasy of being a normal teenager by day and a secret government agent who fights and saves the city by night , fantasy of being a superhero with great superpowers , fantasy of being a vampire and my BIGGEST fantasy -being everything I ever wanted to be ! It's great . Sometimes even while studying if it gets too boring , I imagine 'I am the secret agent who has to go save the city by night so I should better finish studying right now or people might die.'
You can call it stupid or you can call it smart, but I like to think of it as an escape mechanism ,because you all know,reality sucks . Some try to escape it by fantasizing about better things ,Some by opening up an app on their phone to dive into words and sentences that conjure up a story so mesmerizing and beautiful that you don't want to return to the reality .
It's not necessarily a bad thing . I mean ,you cannot find something fun , new and interesting to do every single day and if you eventually find something that will be fun and interesting to do even if you do it every single day (your calling or as Japanese call it ' ikigai' ) , then you can't have it right away - and this you will all agree to , sucks.
Fantasizing is the dream , you can have every thing you want , and that too right in that moment. Except that it's not true.
But I don't want to delve into technicalities here.
You read about my fantasies . You probably don't want to read about my life. I studied for exactly 50 minutes today, sucks, my dentist told me I have to wear braces for next 4-6 months, sucks (PS I had braces for 2 years when I was in 6th and 7th grade and I didn't wear my retainers for next 2 years so now one of them relapsed. Sucks more), I still haven't gathered enough courage to talk to the cute guy in my neibourhood , sucks.And that's it.
You will be surprised to know how small things make me happy and how many things I want . My life is simple but my mind is complex , the amount of stuff in there is sometimes lethal . Sometimes if I am alone in a room for too long a part of me feels 'someone save me from myself!' But so many dreams and so many new things to try ,I wonder if this life, will be enough and at that thought I smile.
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Diary of an enigmatic girl
Ngẫu nhiênA dive into the life of a regular teenage girl. The similarity and the uniqueness both intertwined . A pinch of every problem , every emotion, every achievement, every random fun and a glance into her life.
