The Nerdy alpha.

Highway to hell (Book Ending pt.

No song right now sorry. Hey guys this is the 3/4ths point of this book!!! 3 chapters and we're approaching the end. I know, sad. BUT DONT FRET!!! There is a second book coming out and I'm planning on making it a triology because I feel like this story needs to be stretched out. 

Yay!!!! *pop the champagne!!!*

3 months later: 

Summer's P.O.V:

The Jack Daniel's bottle made it's way to my mouth again. The accelorator was booming. The radio was blasting. I didn't care. I thrust my foot into the gas pedal. Tobias. Tobias. Tobias. 

Fricking Tobias. I screamed. And rolled down my window I didn't care that I was approaching a cliff. It was dark. My mind wasn't in a stable state. Tears trailed down my skin. Screw life. Screw Tobias. Screw happiness. I was sick of looking for him. I was sick of having my heart feel like it was loosing blood and on the last drop, beating on nothing but dust. I was sick of the feeling of missing his body next to mine when I needed it most. I was sick of hating myself for not finding him. I threw the bottle out the window and heard it shatter into billions of pieces. The note was the beginning of hell. Pure hell without him. 

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I woke up and didn't feel his heartbeat on my back. He had come to stay with me last night because he had a nightmare. I didn't mind it. I was falling for him and his lips. His curly hair. Nerdiness. Absurd height. Love for all things Star Wars. When I fell asleep in his arms I was content. This was the person I was going to spend the night with in the future for the rest of my life. My technical husband. My everything. I loved him (still love him). I turned over and found it, the note taped to the nightstand. 

Dear Summer,

I love you more than is humanly possible. The thought of being without you kills me. Makes me feel like my existence is worth nothing without you. Your eyes are a place I could get lost in forever. So when I tell you I'm leaving you, you have to believe it's for a good reason. You have to know there are powers at work greater than us. That we are the key to destruction. And I swear to God, I would let everyone die just to be with you. To hold you, to kiss you whenever I want, to wrap my arms around you, to have kids with you that look just like us. But Summer, white picket fences, yellow brick houses, and little footprints aren't in our future. We have other people on this earth, on this planet, and their fate depends on us-- at least in the supernatural world-- and it'd be selfish to let them die to be with you. Trust me, It's killing me. Which is why I'm rejecting you. You can't reject me and so I'm doing it for you. I realize that there's no going back. You realized that when you accepted me for the last time. I know you won't admit it, but you love me, and I love you. So I, Tobias Collins ( A/N not mayfield, sorry about the confusion guys haha), reject you. I'm making myself forget. I can't go on without you. I love you. Dammit. I love you Summer, please don't forget this. Actually do. Forget about ever having a relationship with me, in fact, forget me. Do it. It'll make life easier, that's what I'm doing. 

Yours always and forever onto eternity, 

Tobias, the last time. 

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I've been searching for him for 3 months and I'm done. I'm killing myself. Life without him is too painful and life with him in my mind is excruciating. I can't forget him though, he's the most human part of myself.