The starry night

The starry night.
The nights have been long, especially when you’re deep in space. I can’t tell if it’s day or night but all I do know is that I miss you. Space is extremely cold and lonely. I miss you even more out here. Earth is so far from me. Why am I in space? Oh yeah, I remember now, the world is shattered and broken because an asteroid hit Earth. I don’t remember when that was, perhaps years ago but it feels like mere seconds ago for me. I still remember how we met, maybe.

We met on a sunny day, as if the universe was telling us that we were meant for each other. I still remembered how you looked that day, beautiful as ever. I don’t know for how long I can remember that. Space is empty. I know how much you loved outer space. I never understood why. Perhaps they should have brought you up here too. The stars are bright up here, you would have loved them and I, would have loved seeing them with you but as I stare at the stars here alone, I realize it’s not special if not with you.

The ship I’m on is big and cool and as I start to search around more, its really just me out here, on my own. The ship has a coffee machine, and when I made some coffee, it didn’t taste or have the aroma of the coffee you made. You would have probably laughed at me for thinking that but it was true. The ship also has a room for me, it’s really big, perhaps it was made for two. I miss you so much, you’re all I think of when I’m about to go to sleep.

Hey, are you still on Earth? Maybe I could go there again someday. I want to see you. I’m drifting away in outer space. It probably would have been cooler with you by my side. I don’t know where I am but could you wait for me until I could somehow get back to Earth?

Will I still remember you as time passes? I don’t think I can. I don’t want to forget you. I don’t want to forget memories we had together. Time is passing but it’s leaving our memories behind. Hey, does the universe have something against us? Why is time being so cruel? Why is it so lonely up here? Why can’t I remember how you look like now?

Do you still remember me? I still look young but time is still passing. I hate that it’s passing without you. I hope you’re well. There is still some part of me that still hopes that I’ll go back home to where you are. However, I know, I know very well now that time has passed and you are gone. There is no possibility you could have survived that big of an asteroid. In the end, it was all just my wishful thinking, hoping to see you once more.

Before that asteroid crashed, we were arguing about something. I don’t quite remember what. Maybe it was because I did something wrong but I do know that if I had a chance, I’d apologize and kiss you. Our friends were always so happy for us, I wished I could’ve spent more time with them all. I can’t remember their faces or yours, the face that I desperately tried to keep in my mind forever. I wish I could take more photos, especially when you looked so beautiful all the time, why didn’t I?

I can’t remember you anymore, how you looked like, your voice, your smile. It hurts, I miss you so much, I’m so lonely up here. My memories are getting corrupted. I wish I could see you one last time and tell you how much I loved you. Time is moving but you, my dear are left in the shadows of time because fate is cruel. Oh, how I miss you so. I’m sorry, I couldn’t save you dear but do know that I didn’t leave you because my heart is always with you. I’m sorry we can’t meet again but maybe it’s time for me to accept how cruel the universe is.

Perhaps, we can meet again, just not ever again in this life. I love you and I wish I could have shown how much I loved you even more but our time together has ended and I need to accept that. I’m sorry and I love you.