HermitCraft Oneshots

Goodbye to A World (Angst)

I'll admit, this one hurt a little to write.

Ship - None

Warnings - Suicide, Intrusive thoughts, slightly descriptive death

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I was stood on the balcony at the top of the now crumbling Watcher tower, enjoying the first light of dawn as the thoughts ate away at my mind.

Useless.

You're the reason they came here in the first place.

It's all your fault.

They're in pain because of you.

They all hate you.

They all wish you were dead.

I sighed at the last thought. Maybe they do hate me. I mean, I was the reason the Watchers came here in the first place. I was the reason they got hurt.

I stepped closer to the edge of the balcony, looking down at the drop below, sick thoughts coming to my mind.

Jump off.

I contemplated it. I wouldn't hurt the Hermits anymore if I were dead; and it's not like they would miss me anyway.

I took another step closer to the edge.

Maybe it would be better this way. Maybe it will stop the pain.

Another step.

"Grian stop! You don't need to do this." A pleading voice pulled me out of my mind. Mumbo.

I quickly spun around, a look of guilt and fear painted my face.

"I- I was- It's not-" I couldn't get the words out before I broke down in tears.

Mumbo took a step closer, an empathic smile on his face.

"Come on, we can work through this together. I'm sure you could talk to Joe, or you could come to me, you could come to any of us Grian. We're here for you. We'll always be here for you."

"I won't." mumbled something inaudible back, a sad smile growing on my face.

"Come again?" Mumbo asked.

"I won't, Mumbo. I won't be here. I've caused enough pain as it is, and I need to end that pain. And I can do that by ending myself." I spoke with a sob.

Mumbo took another step, this time more apprehensive.

"No Grian, there's other ways. I promise. The pain won't last forever, it will heal. We can help you heal. Please, just promise me you won't jump off that ledge." Concern was evident in the mustached mans' voice.

I sighed defeatedly, knowing he wouldn't give up.

"Fine, I promise." I said despairingly.

He took a step back now, trusting I wouldn't jump.

"Good, now come over here and we can-" He started before I cut him off.

"The thing about promises, Mumbo, is that they're meant to be broken." I spoke with a sickening smile as I fell back off the ledge.

After that, it was all a blur, I could make out Mumbo shouting my name, a hand reaching out trying to grasp mine, but just barely missing.

I felt the wind rushing past my ears as I descended to the earth.

I felt at peace, I felt calm, I felt.. regret.

I reminisced about the Hermits, Mumbos redstone, Iskalls' signature laugh, Scar's clumsiness, Pearls' amazing builds.

I'm gonna miss them. I thought to myself as my upper back made contact with the rocks below.

A couple cracks were heard, no doubt my bones snapping from the sudden impact. It only hurt for a second though before everything began to fade. The shouts of Mumbo became quiet whispers just barely reaching my ears. My vision was blurry and was already beginning to blacken at the edges. I felt a warm liquid on the back of my head. Blood.

Everything became blurry and quiet, as if the world was giving me a peaceful lullaby to fall asleep to.

So this is it, goodbye to a world, goodbye to my world.

With a final exhale, I gave in, I gave into the pain, the suffering, the thoughts, the anger, all of it. I closed my eyes, my story was over.

Finally, I was at peace.

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This was just a short thing I made listening to this song at 1AM

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-Skyrise